prove it.â
âHuh?â Slowly the feeling of awed incredulity was fading. It was beginning to seem almost normal to talk to this magical being.
âLetâs prove it. Get some scissors.â
âScissors?â
Gillian stared at the angel. He stared back.
âI donât even know where any scissors are.â
âDrawer to the left of the silverware drawer in the kitchen. A big sharp pair.â He grinned like Little Red Riding Hoodâs grandmother.
Gillian wasnât afraid. She didnât decide not to be, she simply wasnât.
âOkay,â she said and went down to get the scissors. The angel went with her, floating just behind her shoulder. Atthe bottom of the stairs were two Abyssinian cats, curled up head to toe like the yin-yang symbol. They were fast asleep. Gillian nudged one gently with one toe, and it opened sleepy crescents of eyes.
And then it was off like a flashâboth cats were. Streaking down the side hall, falling over each other, skidding on the hardwood floor. Gillian watched with her mouth open.
âBalaamâs ass,â the angel said wisely.
âI
beg
your pardon?â For a moment Gillian thought she was being insulted.
âI mean, animals can see us.â
âBut they were
scared
. All their furâIâve never seen them like that before.â
âWell, they may not understand what I am. It happens sometimes. Come on, letâs get the scissors.â
Gillian stared down the side hall for a moment, then obeyed.
âNow what?â she said as she brought the scissors back to her room.
âGo in the bathroom.â
Gillian went into the little bathroom that adjoined her bedroom and flicked on the light. She licked dry lips.
âAnd now?â she said, trying to sound flippant. âDo I cut off a finger?â
âNo. Just your hair.â
In the mirror over the sink, Gillian saw her own jaw drop. She couldnât see the angel, though, so she turned around.
âCut my
hair
?
Off
?â
âOff. You hide behind it too much. You have to show the world that youâre not hiding anymore.â
âButââ Gillian raised protective hands, looking back in the mirror. She saw herself, pale, delicate boned, with eyes like wood violetsâpeering out from a curtain of hair.
So maybe he had a point. But to go into the world
naked
, without anything to duck behind, with her face exposedâ¦
âYou said you trusted me,â the angel said quietly.
Gillian chanced a look at
him
. His face was stern and there was something in his eyes that almost scared her. Something unknowable and cold, as if he were withdrawing from her.
âItâs the way to prove yourself,â he said. âItâs like taking a vow. If you can do this part, youâre brave enough to do what it takes to get your heartâs desire.â He paused deliberately. âBut, of course, if youâre not brave enough, if you want me to go awayâ¦â
âNo,â
Gillian said. Most of what he was saying made sense, and as for what she didnât understandâwell, she would have to have faith.
I can do this.
To show that she was serious, she took the open scissors, bracketed the pale blond curtain at a level with her ear, and squeezed them shut. Her hair just folded around the scissors.
âOkay.â The angel was laughing. âHold onto the hair at the bottom and
pull
. And try less hair.â
He sounded like himself again: warm and teasing andlovingâhelpful. Gillian let out her breath, gave a wobbly smile, and devoted herself to the horrible and fascinating business of cutting off long blond chunks.
When she was done, she had a silky blond cap. Short. It was shorter than Amyâs hair, almost as short as J.Z. Oberlinâs hair, the girl at school who worked as a model and looked like a Calvin Klein ad. It was
really
short.
âLook in the mirror,â the angel said,