he was standing several inches off the floor. âYou were in bad shape, kid. But you got out of it without even frostbite.â
Gillian looked down at her own ten pink fingers. They were tinglingly oversensitive, but she didnât have even one blood blister. âYou saved me.â
He gave a half grin and looked sheepish. âWell, itâs my job.â
âTo help people.â
âTo help
you
.â
A barely acknowledged hope was forming in Gillianâs mind. He never really left her; it was his job to help her. That sounded like⦠Could he beâ¦
Oh, God, no, it was too corny. Not to mention presumptuous.
He was looking sheepish again. âYeah. I donât know how to put it, either. But it
is
true, actually. Did you know that most people
think
they have one even when they donât? Somebody did a poll, and âmost people have an inner certainty that there is some particular, individual spirit watching over them.â The New Agers call us spirit guides. The Hawaiians call us
aumakua
â¦.â
âYouâre a guardian angel,â Gillian whispered.
âYeah.
Your
guardian angel. And Iâm here to help you find your heartâs desire.â
âIââ Gillianâs throat closed.
It was too much to believe. She wasnât worthy. She should have been a better person so that she would
deserve
some of the happiness that suddenly spread out in front of her.
But then a cold feeling of reality set in. She
wasnât
a better person, and although she was sure enlightenment and whatever else an angel thought your heartâs desire was, was terrific, well⦠in her caseâ¦
She swallowed. âLook,â she said grimly. âThe things I need help withâwell, theyâre not exactly the kinds of things angels are likely to know about.â
âHeh.â He grinned. He leaned over in a position that would have unbalanced an ordinary person and waved an imaginary something over her head. âYou
shall
go to the ball, Cinderella.â
A wand. Gillian looked at him. âNow youâre my fairy godmother?â
âYeah. But watch the sarcasm, kid.â He changed to a floating position, his arms clasping his knees, and looked her dead in the eye. âHow about if I say I know your heartâs desire is for David Blackburn to fall madly in love with you and for everyone at school to think youâre totally hot?â
Heat swept up Gillianâs face. Her heart was beating out the slow, hard thumps of embarrassmentâand excitement. When he said it out loud like that, it sounded extremely shallow⦠and extremely, extremely desirable.
âAnd you could
help
with that?â she choked out.
âBelieve it or not, Ripley.â
âBut youâre an
angel
.â
He templed his fingers. âThe paths to enlightenment are many, Grasshopper. Grasshopper? Maybe I should call you Dragonfly. You
are
sort of iridescent. Thereâre lots of other insects, but Dung Beetle sounds sort of insultingâ¦.â
Iâve got a guardian angel who sounds like Robin Williams, Gillian thought. It was wonderful. She started to giggle uncontrollably, on the edge of tears.
âOf course, thereâs a condition,â the angel said, droppinghis fingers. He looked at her seriously. His eyes were like the violet-blue at the bottom of a flame.
Gillian gulped, took a scared breath. âWhat?â
âYou have to trust me.â
âThatâs
it
?â
âSometimes it wonât be so easy.â
âLook.â Gillian laughed, gulped again, steadied herself. She looked away from his eyes, focusing on the graceful body that was floating in midair. âLook, after all Iâve seen⦠after you saved my lifeâand my
bits
⦠how could I not trust you?â She said it again quietly. âHow could I ever not trust you?â
He nodded. Winked. âOkay,â he said. âLetâs