she said. But she didnât. Not really. Not anymore. But Lord help her, she wanted to know. Was that the real reason sheâd wanted him back? To see if there was anything there between them? Anything worth salvaging? Was she just as selfish as ever, despite her years of helping others? She didnât want to even consider the possibility. But Mattie had considered it. Mattie had made no secret of wondering if Hayley had ulterior motives in going after Sam.
He shot her a skeptical look. A look that said nobody knew what he was. Not even him. âIâm going to takeinventory,â he said. âAnd see what weâve got here. You can go now. And take that ogre in the front office with you.â
âYou call Mattie an ogre? What about that woman in your front office? I thought she was going to have me for lunch if I tried to invade your inner sanctum.â
âMarion? Sheâs been with me for two years. Superefficient. Knows what I need before I ask. Wouldnât hurt a flea. Youâre too sensitive, Hayley. Now go home and do whatever it is you do for your guests.â
She gave a little sigh of relief. He wasnât leaving. At least not yet. âIn the afternoon I put out the sherry and cheese and crackers. I give them tips about where to eat and what to do. In the morning itâs breakfast. Scones, hot cereal, fresh fruit, muffins. And more tips.â
âI could use some of those tips. And the muffins. Iâm impressed. You couldnât boil water when I knew you.â
âIâve changed.â She ran a hand through her blond hair, suddenly exhausted from trying to act cheerful and normal when she felt anything but. Trying to make him glad heâd come, when he was so obviously not. He wasnât the only one worried about how this scheme would turn out. âSo have you,â she murmured under her breath.
She crossed the room quickly, anxious to get out of there, to put some space between them, but before she could leave he grabbed her arm and pulled her roughly toward him until there were only inches between them. His eyes were so dark and so hard they looked like black obsidian. And there was a faint scar at the corner of his eyebrow. A souvenir of that last night in town. Of the stitches Grandpa put there that saved his eye.
Sam smelled like the wind off the ocean and the leather of his expensive car and again she was scared to death. This time she wasnât scared heâd leave, she was scaredheâd stay. Because she didnât know how she was going to work and live under the same roof with him without falling in love all over again.
âThis isnât going to work, Hayley,â he said through clenched teeth. Which echoed her sentiments exactly.
She met his gaze, trying to play dumb, play innocent. âWhat isnât?â
âWorking together, staying at your house. Do you know how many times I pressed my face against that ten-foot-tall wrought-iron front gate of yours? How many times I wanted to be part of your world?â
âYou were part of my world,â she whispered. âThe most important part.â
He held her at armâs length and observed her with cold, unforgiving eyes. âNo,â he said. âNot when it counted.â
Her heart thumped, she felt tears collecting and threatening to spill over. Unable to speak, she jerked out of his grasp, skirted around him and walked past Mattie to the front door, her mind spinning, wondering if sheâd really done the right thing after all by persuading him to come. Yes, his presence was needed, yes he might even save lives, but what about her? Who was going to save her? Mattie looked up from her ancient Royal typewriter.
âYou were right,â the nurse hissed. âHe has changed.â
âSee? I told you,â Hayley said, forcing a smile.
âHeâs even more arrogant than ever, if you ask me,â she said with a glance over her