medical students you can order around. And a team of residents. Iâve seen how it is on those TV doctor shows. But thatâs not the way it is here. And donât think Iâm always going to be available to help you out. In fact, I only work half days on account of my heart.â
âWhatâs wrong with your heart?â he asked.
âNothing,â she snapped. âI just donât want to strain it.â
âYou work half days, Iâll work the other half,â Hayley interjected.
Sam turned to look at her, and so did the nurse.
âYou?â they chorused.
âYes, me. Of course I donât have the training or the experience that you do, Mattie, but I might be able to do the billing andâ¦whatever else is needed.â
Sam glared at her. No. He didnât want her in the office, distracting him, trying to help out. Reminding him he was there under duress. Of course, he didnât want old stone-face around, either. He just wished it didnât have to beeither of them. But he was going to need someone. It was true. He had medical students to do his scut work. Interns who made rounds with him and hung on every word he said. And he hadnât the slightest idea how to run an office.
âWell,â Hayley said brightly, âletâs take a tour, Sam. Iâm afraid the equipment is sadly out-of-date,â she said as they went from the waiting room to the office to the examining room. âJust give me a list of what youâll need, and Iâll order it.â
âIâll manage,â he said gruffly. He knew now why he should never have come. Once again he felt like the poor kid from the wrong side of the tracks being patched up by Doc Bancroft. The kid who couldnât pay his bill, couldnât even leave a sack of apples on the porch.
âItâs only for six months,â he reminded her and himself. He looked out the back window at a young woman pushing a stroller down Elm Street, and he wondered if he would remember how to deliver a baby, if heâd be telephoned in the middle of the night to reassure anxious parents when their kids were spiking fevers of 104 or having an asthmatic attack. âMaybe no one will come. Maybe theyâd rather drive to Portland than put themselves in my hands. Did you ever think of that?â he asked Hayley.
âDonât be ridiculous. Everyone Iâve talked to is delighted youâre going to be here. So delighted the local businesses have put together a welcome basket.â
âA welcome basket. Just what I wanted. Whatâs in it? A loaf of bread from the Good Times Bakery where I used to snitch doughnuts before school? An ice cream cone from the soda shop where I got thrown out for looking scruffy, annoying the paying customers and reading their magazines but never buying any?â
âSam, please. No one remembers these things but you. Or if they do, theyâre willing to forgive and forget.â
âMattie doesnât look as if sheâs forgotten or forgiven.â
âThatâs Mattie,â she said.
âMaybe I donât give a damn about being forgiven, as long as I can be forgotten,â he suggested.
Forgotten. As if sheâd ever forgotten that last night in this examining room. The blinds were drawn. The blood was running down Samâs face. Mattie was holding the syringe. She thought she was going to faint when her grandfather laid him on the table, picked up a needle and shot him full of anesthetic. Her heart pounded as the memories came rushing back. She glanced over at Sam, wondering if he was thinking of that night, wishing it hadnât ended the way it had. Wishing she could have prevented what happened, but she couldnât.
She tore her gaze away and led the way into the examining room, nervously adjusting the height of the blinds at the windows, not knowing what to say. Afraid to say anything that would set him off. That would make him