turn on his heel and leave. Because under that suave exterior, under the pressed, gray flannel slacks and behind the hand-knit Irish fishermanâs sweater he wore, she sensed he was the same proud, poor, combative, stubborn teenage boy she once fell in love with when she was eighteen. All along sheâd thought of this deal as benefiting the town. Now she wondered if it might do something for Sam if heâd stay. It might help him overcome his bitterness about the past. If heâd let it. But he probably wouldnât.
âPart of the deal is free housing,â she said. As if he cared. As if he couldnât afford to pay.
âThatâs nice,â he said. âBut Iâm not exactly poor, since I had no debts to pay offâ¦.â The way he said it was averbal nudge to remind her that sheâd shamed him into coming. That he had a debt to pay off and that was the only reason he was there.
âIâm sorry about that,â she said. âI never meant to tell you. I told you Grandpa never would have let you know, butâ¦â
âBut you were desperate.â
âYes. Anyway, since youâll only be here six months, I hope youâll be comfortable at the B&B.â
âWhere is it?â
âAt my house.â
âYour house? Youâve turned your family home into a bed and breakfast? So you really did lose your money. How did that happen? Or is that another âlong storyâ?â
âNo, itâs a short story. My father made some bad investments. They left and retired to Arizona where itâs dry and warm and better for my motherâs arthritis. I managed to hang on to the house. But only just barely. Business hasnât been exactly great. But Iâm expecting guests tonight, a family. I hope you donât mind having kids around.â
âDo you?â he asked.
âI like kids,â she said. âThat house was made for a big family. I thoughtâ¦â
âYou thought by now youâd have a few of your own,â he said.
She turned her head and swallowed over a lump in her throat. How had the conversation taken this dangerous turn? She wished sheâd never mentioned kids. She wished she hadnât ever confided in him and that he didnât have such a good memory. Not so long ago sheâd wanted a baby desperately. So desperately sheâd married the wrong man and then⦠âI did, but Iâm not married,â she explained. âI guess Iâm an oddity these days. But I believe every kid should have two parents.â
The lines in his forehead deepened, and she wished she could have bitten her tongue. Sam had a mother, but whata mother, and heâd barely known his father. How insensitive of her to say what sheâd said.
âAnyway,â she continued, âIâm expecting this family, and maybe theyâll tell their friends what a wonderful town New Hope is and what a great place the Bancroft House is for families and the word will spread and Iâll have more and more guests andââ
âWhat if you do get more guests? How do you think youâre going to run a bed and breakfast and work half-time in the office?â he asked.
âPiece of cake,â she said lightly. âIf I have more business, Iâll hire help.â
âI hope you donât think having a doctor in town is going to bring in more tourists. Because Iâve got news for you. Itâs probably not going to make a damn bit of difference. You know that, donât you?â
âOf course I know that,â she said. âBut what about the mill worker who gets a finger caught in the saw? Or the kid who breaks his arm on the school playground or the baby whoâs running a fever of 105? Thatâs where having a doctor will make a huge difference.â
âIâm not a pediatrician or an orthopedic surgeon. I hope you know that.â
âI know exactly what you are,â