youâre going to try working at other magazines?â
âYeah. Iâm going to touch up my résumé and get ready to get back out there.â
âThatâs positive thinking.â
âAnd at least I have a great dress for interviews.â
âSee? Youâre thinking better already.â
Bill Cosbyâs Chest Hair
âIâm sorry, Mrs. Stevens, but you donât seem qualified for this position.â
I stared blankly at his soft white face and shook my head. For the past several weeks I had been on over ten interviews, magazines and newspapers mostly, with all of them repeating the same answerâ youâre not qualified. It seemed reviewing the latest literary novel was not something that was desired at other magazines. And the fact that Spirit Magazine was the only place Iâd ever worked didnât bode well for my résumé.
âLook, donât you have anything open for me?â
He took off his wire-rimmed glasses and sat back in his black leather chair.
âIâm going to be honest with you, Mrs. Stevensââ
âPlease call me Mariah.â
âOkay. Um, Mrs. Stevens, you donât have the experience we need right now for our newspaper. New York World gives hard-hitting political and editorial pieces. From what I read off your résumé, your job consisted of reading books and giving reviews. That really isnât our thing here. We need a copy editorâdo you think that is something youâre skilled at?â
âNo. But Iâm a fast learner, and I can be trainedââ
He put his glasses back on and wrote something down. Without looking up he remarked that he would call me if something came up for me, and I left his office with a $3,000 dress on and $727 in the bank. I walked outside to a gust of wind that blew my long weave across my cheek, caressing it like how I longed a man would do. I did everything I could think of to save money, but my weave was the only thing that I held on to, it was stitched to my hair, interlocking us together. I was as much a part of it as it was a part of me. It was who I was, my weave, and I refused to let it go. I said as much to Norma over lunchâwhich she paid for.
âIt shouldnât be that big of a deal,â she said, tossing her long brown hair over her shoulder. âItâs just hair.â
âOf course you would say thatâ your hair is long.â
âWell, youâve been wearing a weave for years. Maybe your hair is long, too.â
âNot this long. Besides, my hair is so tight and kinky that it looks like Bill Cosby transplanted his chest hair onto my head.â
âGross. I donât want to imagine Bill Cosby without a shirt on, thank you very much,â she said, sipping her iced tea.
âSomething has to give. I donât have enough money to pay my rent next month. If things got really bad, do you thinkâ¦you knowâthat I could move in with you and Chris? Just for a little while?â
Right after we graduated from NYU, Normaâs grandmother bought her a tiny, two-bedroom condo near Central Park. Tall, wide windows encompassed the entire apartment with light, and the hardwood floors shined like new pennies. She immediately asked me to move in, and I was both excited and relieved that I didnât have to find a place of my own. Life had been fun and carefree then, I was an intern at Spirit , and Norma was just getting her photography business off the ground. Iâd still be there if it she hadnât ruined everything and fell in love with Christopher Rodriguez, a handsome chef that she met at one of the weddings that she photographed. It was love at first sight for them, and he slowly came over to the house more and more. They would sit together on the sofa, snuggled in each otherâs arms, while I would be in my tiny bedroom reading, or wondering why the latest man Iâd been dating had dumped me. After