you say that youmade them?â
Violet puts her hands on her hips. âFor your information, no one saw me put them there. I thought it would be fun to have it be a secret. Iâm not going to say who made them.â
âOh.â I feel so stupid. I canât tell Violet about why I donât want to be involved â it all just sounds so lame.
âSo, whatâs wrong, Scarlett?â
âNothing.â I turn away and leave the canteen.
I rush down the corridor. Violet could have been my friend and Iâve ruined it. Why canât I just tell her the truth â that Iâm scared to do anything because of Mum and her stupid blog. Why did I go to Mrs Simpsonâs house, and why did Violet have to find me? Why did Violet have to come to our school at all?
In the girlsâ loos, I practically slam into Gretchen and Alison who are on their way out. âHey, watch it.â Gretchen teeters backwards.
I lock myself in a cubicle.
âYou OK, Scarlett?â Gretchen almost manages to sound concerned.
âCome on, Gretch,â Alison says.
âI think sheâs crying.â
âNo Iâm not!â
âWhatever.â
I wait in the cubicle until Iâm sure theyâre gone. A part of me knows that Iâm acting totally irrational â like Iâm outside my own body watching a crazy person. And then a new coldness washes over me. What if Gretchen tells Mum that she saw me crying like a big baby?
The loo door bangs behind me as I run out into the hall. Keeping my head bowed low, I push past the people in the corridor and run out of the school.
A SPOONFUL OF SECRETS
W hat am I doing? Where am I even going? I hurry past the shops, practically knocking down an old man pulling along a battered shopping trolley. I almost get hit as a lorry grinds to a stop in the middle of the zebra crossing. All the time Iâm heading towards home â but I donât want to go home. Thoughts flash into my head: Help! My selfish daughter tried to run away , or worse: Help! My daughter ran away and then, unfortunately, came back!
Panting for breath, I finally stop. Iâm standing on the doorstep of Mrs Simpsonâs house. I get the key out from under the mat, open the door and letmyself inside.
The cat is there just inside the door. I scoop it up and sob into its black fur. It purrs in my arms but flicks its tail, like itâs deciding whether or not to tolerate me.
âIâm sorry,â I say, setting it down. âYouâve got your own problems, havenât you?â
The cat struts into the kitchen, meowing for food. I follow slowly behind, my heart finally slowing in the calm quiet of Mrs Simpsonâs kitchen. The recipe notebook is on the bookstand where I left it. But Iâm almost positive that I left it open on the scones page. Now, itâs flipped open to a page on âPat-a-cake Flapjacksâ. Thereâs a drawing cut from an old book and pasted on to the page of a little boy in a puffy white bakerâs hat. Thereâs a hand-drawn border around him of steaming pies and iced cakes.
I flip through the notebook, my mouth watering at the possibilities: Hansel and Gretelâs Gingerbread, Knave of Hearts Strawberry Tarts, The Princess and the Pea Soup, Simple Simonâs Cottage Pie. But in the end, I turn back to the Pat-a-cake Flapjacks. Whatever they are â I need to make them.
Just like before, nearly every ingredient called for in the recipe is almost immediately to hand â like some kind of magic baking elf has been atwork. Next to the recipe book, there are even two bars of Belgian cooking chocolate on the worktop that I swear werenât there last time. Itâs definitely a little weird, but I decide to make the best of it. I put on an apron, wash my hands and get started. I even remember to preheat the oven this time.
The cat sits and watches as I work. First, I read through the recipe so I know exactly