freshly applied at Kellerâs, she looked used-up and ready to fold, struggling to keep her eyes open.
âItâs in the heat of the moment. Like someone finds out.â She just looked at me, to see if we were on the same page.
âAnd?â
âThey might stiff you. âCause you cheated them, they say. You tricked them, pretending to be one thing and really being something else. This one guy, he catches me off guard, you know what Iâm saying? And he goes, âOh, my God, itâs a man. Do I finish?ââ
âWhat did he decide?â
Chi Chi rolled her eyes. âPaid me, too. But some of them, they feel like a fool, and they gets pissed something fierce.â
I nodded.
âThatâs the least of it, not paying. They get so mad sometimes.â She shook her head. âSometimes you got to go to Emergency. You canât work for a couple of days. Means you canât eat, or nothing. Means you could lose your home, have to live in some abandoned car, take a crap next to a tree, like you was a dog. Could be, your luck runs out, itâs worse than that. Like what happened to Rosalinda.â
âYouâre saying it was a john who did her?â
âIâm sayingââ She sighed. âIâm saying, some people, you put one over on them, they feel â¦â She seemed to blank out for a second. Then she began to shake her head. âLook, Iâm telling you the truth. You listening?â
âI am.â
âYou injure their pride, some of them, it makes them mad enough to kill. You understand what Iâm saying? Itâs a guy thing,â she said, reminding me she knew whereof she spoke. âLook, we gotta go. I promised Vinnie.â
âVinnie? Thatâs your idea of a Polish name?â
âWhatever.â
I watched the ten float down to the sidewalk. Chi Chi didnât seem to notice.
âThe only thing he cares about is I jusâ gotta make sure none of them sees me when they come on.â
âThe other butchers?â
I pointed to the bill, and Dashiell picked it up. I took it from him, held it up to show her, and put it in the pocket of Clintâs jacket.
âRight. They would, you know, never let up on him, he did it with someone like me. He couldnât stay working there. The truckers, well, thatâs a whole other story. They get what they want, and thatâs the end of it. No one knows but the two consenting adults involved. You get my meaning?â
I nodded. âThe payer and the payee.â
âYeah.â
âYouâre saying itâs a cash transaction with no repercussions.â
She nodded.
âHey, the guyâs been driving since fucking Iowa or some other godforsaken dump with dead pigs in the back. Heâs got needs. Heâs human, right? So for twenty, thirty bucks, he feels like a million. Not a bad return on his money. End of story. No one from the pee hole where he lives is gonna give him a hard time, because no one from there knows nothing. They never left there in their miserable lives, and if they did, this is the last place on earth theyâd show up. Sometimes thatâs what I think it is, Rachel.â
She stumbled, and I caught her elbow.
âThe last place on earth?â I asked.
Chi Chi sighed. âI want this trick, I gotta be prompt arriving and get out prompt, he says. Thatâs all. And one other thing.â
âWhatâs that?â
âWe maintain the illusion. He donât wanna find a dick in his hand unless itâs his own.â
âGot it. So this is the pig man you didnât want to talk about?â
She nodded. âLook, we gotta talk somewhere else. I canât stay here. Itâs getting to be time.â
âFor them to open?â
âYeah. For the rest of them to come. And the truckers. I might do some of them down the block, but they see me here, itâs a whore of another color. They could