âYou know youâre not at work, right?â I said. âYou know Iâm not one of those prisoners on the cell block?â I popped my eyes open wide. âSo why are you in here acting like you canât tell time?â
âIâm a little sick of your fresh mouth.â
âYou wake me up at two AM . What did you think we were going to talk about, the weather?â
âYou know what? Itâs to the point where I just donât know what to do with you. Ever since your father died you just act as if Iâm the enemy.â
I rolled my eyes to the ceiling. I had bigger fish to fry than this: like losing my boyfriend. âPlease donât act like the victim.â I shook my head. âThatâs what you always did; you always acted like the victim when you were always the one to start it. So just go in your room so I can go back to sleep.â
Apparently she didnât hear anything I just said because now she was screaming. âYou donât tell me what to do! And you donât talk to me like that, Iâm the mother around here!â
âThen act like it. I do everything and what do you do?! Huh? Nothing but work and ignore the hell out of us as if you are on the countdown for us to turn eighteen. So donât come up in here because I didnât wash the dishes. Acting as if you are Justine Simmons, mom of the year.â
âWhat are you guys yelling about?â Hadiah came to my door, wiping her eyes.
âNothing,â my mother said. âGo back to bed.â
Hadiah stood there.
âI said go back to bed!â my mother said, enraged.
Hadiah looked at me, and I said, âItâs okay, Hadiah, go back to bed.â
âYou sure?â she asked with a worried look in her eyes.
âYes.â I nodded. âIâm sure. I got this.â
My motherâs mouth hung open, and I could tell she was a mix between being extremely pissed and her feelings being hurt. I grabbed my comforter and pillow from the floor, pointed to the door, and said, âThatâs called stay home more.â Not that I wanted her around, but Hadiah needed her.
âI will not have you disrespecting me,â my mother said. âI swear ever since your father died everything around here is turned upside down!â
âOh, now you wanna blame daddy? Here you go again being the victim.â
âI was a victim! Your father beat the hell out of me!â
âWell, now heâs dead so you donât have to put up with him! All you did was call the cops on him anyway!â
âWe had problems, and he had no right to put his hands on me!â
âThen you shouldâve shut your mouth and kept quiet. Then he wouldnât have been stressed behind you, got cancer, and died. You couldnât even wait for the ink to dry on his insurance papers before you ran and bought this house. And you only bought it so that there would be no memories of him here! You ainât slick, I know your tricks and you donât have to hold your breath because when Iâm eighteen Iâm out of here! Now cut my light off and youâre dismissed!â
WHACK!!!! Have you ever seen shooting stars in the middle of your room? I couldâve sworn that my motherâs backhand across my face sent me to the edge of the Big Dipper, but Iâm not sure. All I knew is that my ear was ringing and the left side of my face was burning. The same side that Ameen had left a bruise on.
âLet me tell you something!â My mother walked up so close to me that I thought she was going to push me through the wall. âYou donât know anything about what me and your father have gone through. You donât know how many nights I cried and begged and pleaded for him to change, for me to change, for us to change! You think I like what we went through?! But you know what, I donât have to explain anything to you, youâre a child. You will get it