came down, Conrad waited until he sat down with his cereal, then told him.
âThe Marines!â Ollie said. âNo way!â
âThe ones with the white gloves,â Jenny said.
Conrad rolled his eyes, but Lydia could see that he was more confident now.
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That night when they went to bed, Lydia and Marshall talked more about it. Lydia closed the door to their bedroom. The room had a bay window and a window seat looking out over the lawn to the barn. The walls were papered with a ferny green print, the curtains white. The furniture was honey-coloredâan old maple bureau under a curlicued mirror, two carved side chairs. In the corner was an upholstered chaise longue, comfortable and inviting, on which no one ever sat. A white bookcase stood in the corner holding Lydiaâs favorite books and photographs of the children. On the floor was a fraying carpet that had never been large enough for the room.
Lydia stood leaning over the bureau to look in the mirror as she took off her earrings. âSo what do you think?â she asked. âIâm flabbergasted. The Marines.â She looked past herself in the mirror, at Marshall. âI donât think I like it.â
âI donât recall being asked if we liked it.â Marshall unbuttoned some of his buttons, and pulled his shirt over his head, straining the ones still buttoned.
âBut this isnât some summer job. Itâs dangerous,â Lydia said. âWe should have some say about it.â
âI donât actually think we do,â Marshall said. âBut itâs not dangerous. Weâre not at war.â
âThe military is always dangerous,â Lydia said. âWhat about those Marines in Somalia?â
âThere are thousands and thousands of Marines. A few died in Somalia. That could have happened anywhere. They could have died in a car crash.â
Lydia turned to him. âBut they didnât. That was a horrible death.â
Marshall said nothing.
âItâs so strange of him. Where did he get the idea?â
Outside, the big sugar maples muffled the house in the darkness.
âWeâre not supposed to know where our children get their ideas,â Marshall said. âItâs a mystery. If weâre successful parents, our children will invent themselves.â
Marshall stepped out of his pants and turned them upside down. He took them by the cuffs and swung them neatly, aligning the legs. He set them over the back of a chair.
Lydia sat down on the bed. She put her hands on her knees. âI really donât like it,â she said. âI really donât.â
Marshall sat down next to her. He put his arm around her. âItâs something we didnât expect. But I think his mind is made up. Heâs twenty-one, heâs an adult. I donât think we have much choice.â
âHe has a year before he signs up for good. I hope he changes his mind,â Lydia said.
âI can understand the appeal,â Marshall said.
Lydia frowned. âWhy do you keep saying that? You were a protester.â
âBecause I thought that war was morally wrong. Iâm not opposed to all wars. Some wars have to be fought, like World War II. And I can see why Conrad wants to do this. Itâs the big test: Iâm kind of proud he wants to take it.â
âIn our generation, if you acted out of moral beliefs, you were a protester,â Lydia said. âOr you joined the Peace Corps.â
âSo, maybe in his generation, you join the Marine Corps,â Marshall said. He stood up again.
Lydia shook her head. âItâs just insane. I know Iâm supposed to adapt to this. I mean, Iâm a family therapist. A mother has to let her children go. I know that.â She shook her head again. âBut does she have to let them walk off a cliff?â
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The colonel snapped his hand down at his