so?â
âItâs all masked in posturing and ploys. Thereâs no honesty. People canât just come up and express their attraction. Itâs got to be cleverly obscured with some stupid pick-up line or not-so-subtle gift, and I donât really know how to play those games so well. Weâre taught that itâs wrong to be honest, like thereâs some kind of social stigma with it.â
âWell,â he considered, âit can come out pretty crass sometimes. And letâs not forget about rejection too. I think that adds to it. Thereâs a fear there.â
âYeah, I guess. But being turned down isnât the worst thing in the world. And wouldnât that be easier than wasting an evening orâGod forbidâmonths of dating? We should state our feelings and intentions openly. If the other person says âfuck off,â well, then, deal. Move on.â
I suddenly eyed my beer bottle suspiciously.
âWhatâs wrong?â
âJust wondering if Iâm drunk. This is my first beer, but I think Iâm sounding a little unhinged. I donât usually talk this much.â
He laughed. âI donât think youâre unhinged. I actually agree with you.â
âYeah?â
He nodded and looked remarkably wise as he contemplated his answer. It made him even sexier. âI agree, but I donât think most people take honesty well. They prefer the games. They want to believe the pretty lies.â
I finished off the last of the Corona. âNot me. Give me honesty anytime.â
âYou mean that?â
âYes.â I set the bottle down and looked at him. He was watching me intently now, and his look was smoky again, all darkness and sex and heat. I fell into that gaze, feeling the response of nerves in my lower body that Iâd thought were dormant.
He leaned slightly forward. âWell, then, hereâs honesty. I was really happy when I saw the empty seat by you. I think youâre beautiful. I think seeing the bra underneath your shirt is dead sexy. I like the shape of your neck and the way those strands of hair lay against it. I think youâre funny, and I think youâre smart too. After just five minutes, I already know you donât let people screw around with youâwhich I also like. Youâre pretty fun to talk to, and I think youâd be just as much fun to have sex with.â He sat back in his chair again.
âWow,â I said, now noticing Iâd put on a white shirt over a black bra in my haste. Oops. âThatâs a lot of honesty.â
âShould I fuck off now?â
I played with the rim of the bottle. I took a deep breath. âNo. Not yet.â
He smiled and ordered us another round.
Introductions seemed like the next logical step, and when his turn came, he told me his name was Kiyo.
âKiyo,â I repeated. âNeat.â
He watched me, and after a moment, a smile danced over his mouth. A really nice mouth too. âYouâre trying to figure me out.â
âFigure you out how?â
âWhat I am. Race. Ethnic group. Whatever.â
âOf course not,â I protested, even though Iâd been trying to do exactly that.
âMy mother is Japanese, and my father is Latino. Kiyo is short for Kiyotaka.â
I scrutinized him, now understanding the large dark eyes and the tanned skin. Human genes were exquisite. I loved the way they blended.
How cool, I thought, to have such a solid grip on your ancestry. I knew my mother had a lot of Greek and Welsh, but there was a mix of all sorts of other things there too. And as for my deadbeat fatherâ¦well, I knew no more about his heritage than I knew anything else about him. For all intents and purposes, I was very much the mongrel the keres had called me earlier.
I realized then Iâd been staring at Kiyo too long. âI like the results,â I finally said, which made him laugh again.
He asked about my