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need to go.”  He turned and opened the door to his truck.  I held onto his arm like it was a lifeline.  My lifeline.
    “No, you’re not leaving.  You can’t leave.”
    He looked at me, gently removed my hand from his arm and said, “Bye, Kasi.”
    I started to cry.  No, this couldn’t be happening.  I needed him.  "No! Please, don’t leave.”
    The anger had left him and he looked defeated.  “I have to.  I can’t do this.”
    Sobbing, I was full on sobbing.  “You can’t do what?”
    “Maybe it’s for the best this way.  Your secret won’t go public and everything will work itself out.”
    He hopped up into his truck and shut the door.  I gripped the bottom of the window, refusing to let him leave even if I was no match for his truck.  “If my secret coming out means I can keep you in my life then the whole world can know for all I care.  You are all that matters to me.  Please, stay.”  I was telling the truth.  As much as I didn’t want anyone to know about my secret, I needed Radek like I needed food and water.
    “I’m sorry.  Seeing you with Kai and Lee, maybe that’s who you’re meant to be with.  They live in your world Kasi, and are used to all that comes with it.  I don’t.”  His voice dropped to a whisper, “I saw the way he looked at you.  It’s evident how he feels.  Maybe you should be with him.”
    I couldn’t talk.  Sobs wracked my body.  The only thing holding me up were my fingers on his truck door.  He picked up each hand and kissed them tenderly, releasing my grip.  “Goodbye, Kasi.”
    I yelled the word no a few more times, but he didn’t respond.  He backed his truck out of the spot it was in and put it in drive.  Slowly it wound down my driveway and out of my life.  I stood there, watching it go long after I knew it had left.  Everything that happened in the short amount of time kept playing over and over in my head.  He was really gone.  He left me over a misunderstanding, one that I tried to clear up, but he wouldn’t listen.
    Tears cascaded down my face as questions bounced around in my head.  What could I have done differently?  I explained everything.  It was all a coincidence.  Could I have made him stay?  Did he ever really love me?  Was it always his intent to leave me and this gave him an out?
    My heart felt like it was shattering into pieces.  I couldn’t drag enough air into my lungs.  Please, please, he needed to come back.  That wasn’t how things were supposed to go.  He was supposed to be a pillar of strength in my life, always having my back.  He told me we were in it together yet he left me.  I needed him to stand by my side.  To love me like only he knew how.
    I don’t know how long I stood outside crying after his truck had left.  Seconds, minutes, hours, it didn’t matter.  I heard a door open and close in the background, but didn’t bother to turn to see who it was.  Kai appeared in my line of sight and his eyes swept over my face.
    “What happened?”
    I shook my head.  “He…left…me.”  All between sobs.
    Nothing else was said after that.  He wrapped his arms around me and pulled me into his chest.  No, this couldn’t be real.  I didn’t want to be in Kai’s arms.  I wanted my pilot back.  This couldn’t be happening to me.
    I had nothing left.  My legs became weak and I started to fall to the ground.  Luckily, Kai held on tight and didn’t let me go.  He gently scooped me up into his arms and carried me into the house.  I heard rustling and then Lee was speaking to me.
    “Kasi, did he hurt you?”  I nodded.  “That son of a bitch,” he spat out.
    “Not in the way you think,” Kai said.  “He left her.”
    Lee growled, “He’s got to be the stupidest man on the planet.  I knew I should have gone out there.  I was trying to give you your space with your boyfriend.”
    “No, that wouldn’t have done any good.  He didn’t want to hear the truth.  Seeing you