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    I had been strong all of my life.  Was I broken inside and felt like I didn’t know how I would go on?  Absolutely.  Was I going to let him and everyone around me know that?  No.
    I thanked Kai for breakfast and went upstairs to shower.  I realized it had been two days since I had done so.  When I emerged clean and dressed from the bathroom Kai was sitting on my bed.  He looked like he could feel my hurt.  The way his frown marred his face and his body was slumped slightly, he appeared broken too.
    That’s when his confession reappeared in my mind.  He told me he loved me and I didn’t say anything back.  Fuck.  I wondered if I avoided discussing it would it go away?  Nope, but it was worth a shot.  I sure as hell wasn’t ready to have a conversation about it with him.
    I walked to him, stopping a few feet away.  He stood and brushed a stray piece of hair back from my face.  “Are you okay?” he asked.
    “No, but at this point what can I do?”
    “Maybe try giving him a few days to cool off and then call him.”  I had no doubt that Lee filled Kai in on what happened while I was in the shower and I was glad.  He told him so I wouldn’t have to.  “He should have never left you, Kasi.  Nothing happened.”
    “I know that and you know that, but Radek only saw what he wanted to.  I don’t know if a few days will make a difference.”
    Kai nodded and leaned in to give me a hug.  I inhaled the scent that was unique to him.  In all of the years I knew him he always smelled the same, like Dove soap and rain.  It was a scent that comforted me and made me miss my friend.
    He moved closer and rested his head against mine.  I soaked in his love and support.  It was something I really needed.  He then shifted slightly and I could feel him getting hard against my stomach.  My eyes bugged and I took a step back.  He rubbed the back of his neck as his face turned a bright shade of red.
    “Sorry about that.  It seems parts of me remember what it feels like to have you near.”
    “Yeah well, keep that part to yourself,” I said and pointed to his crotch.
    He laughed lightly in his embarrassment.  “I’ll do my best ma’am.”
    I rolled my eyes at his attempt to defuse the situation.  “Don’t you start with that shit.”
    He knew how much I hated being called ma’am.  I always felt like I needed to look around for someone older than me.  I was too young for ma’am.  It was a huge pet peeve of mine.
    I lightly smacked him on the arm and we went downstairs.  Scanning the kitchen and living room, I asked, “Where’s Lee?”
    He nodded to the door.  “He’s become best friends with your dog.  He made sure he ate and took him out when needed.”  Of course he did.  He is such a good guy.  I’m very lucky to have both of them in my life.
    Opening the front door, I glanced around and found Lee playing catch with Ace in the front yard.  Ace was running around like he was having the time of his life.  After he retrieved the ball, he went to Lee and got scratched on the head.  Such a ham.
    Lee turned and saw us.  A huge smile lit his face.  “I love this dog!  Can I take him on tour with us?  He’d be a hell of a guard dog.”
    “No!  Who would protect me then?”
    His smile dropped.  “Good point.”
    Ace came trotting over to Kai and I, ball in his mouth, wanting me to throw it.  I launched it into the yard and watched him happily go after it.  The life of a dog.  Not a care in the world.  Must be nice.
    That day and the following one we lounged around the house doing nothing.  We all talked, caught up, kept things light between us.  It was nice, however it gave my mind plenty of time to keep wandering back to my pilot.  Well, he wasn’t my pilot anymore was he?  That thought caused the familiar ache in my chest to increase tenfold.  I’d been trying to keep my mind busy, but it was of no use.  All thoughts always went back to him.
    The next day came and