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would have only made it worse,” I said.
    Kai shifted me in his arms before taking me up to my bedroom.  He laid me down on the bed, pulling the blankets up and over me.  I curled into a ball, trying to bury myself deeper into the mattress.  He went to turn away, but I reached out to grab his hand.
    I didn’t want to be alone.  If I was left by myself I knew what would happen.  I would go back down that dark spiral only depression could drag me into.  I needed to know I had friends who still cared about me.
    He nodded and sat on the bed, pushing himself so his back rested against the headboard.  I moved up and laid my head on him.  “Make the pain stop, Kai.”
    “I wish I could.  Try and get some sleep.  I’ll be right here.”
    He rubbed my back while I cried.  My world was shattered.  The only man I’d ever had a relationship and been in love with was gone.  Over.  We were done.  I still couldn’t wrap my head around it.  Eventually sleep took over and I drifted off into a black nothingness of space.
     

~ 5 ~
    The next time I woke the sun was out.  I was disoriented and didn’t know what day it was.  Rolling over, I ended up hitting a hard body.  Lee was laying sprawled out beside me and snoring.  I elbowed him gently causing him to jump up like someone had lit a fire beneath him.
    “What?  What’s going on?”
    Chuckling at his behavior I asked, “What are you doing in my bed?”
    He rubbed his eyes then focused on my face.  I watched his features soften and could clearly see compassion in his eyes.  That’s when I remembered why Lee was in my bed.  Radek.  He left me and didn’t believe a word I said.  That stung.  I thought he knew me better than that.  Tears started to build in my eyes again.
    Speaking in a gentle tone he said, “Kai is downstairs making us breakfast.  He didn’t want you to wake alone.  Your bed is so comfortable that I passed right out.”  He reached over to brush a tear that had fallen from my cheek.  “Don’t cry, Kasi.  Tell me what happened.  Maybe there is something you’re missing or misunderstood.”
    I told him everything that was said between Radek and I.  Every painful detail.  By the time I got to the end I was sobbing.
    There was a knock on the door before Kai stepped through.  His eyes met mine and he walked with soft steps to the side of my bed.  He was wearing dark jeans that were slung low on his hips, a fitted deep olive green henley, and his feet were bare.  He took a seat on the bed with us.  I knew my face gave everything away.  It was tear stained and I was sure puffy, but I didn’t care.  Both of those men had seen me at my worst.
    Kai reached out for me.  I went right into his arms, put my forehead to his chest, and cried until I couldn’t anymore.  Not because I didn’t want to, but because I had nothing left.  He sat with me, gently rubbing my back, letting me lean on him for as long as I needed.
    Sitting back, I took a deep breath.  The smell of food drifted upstairs and I remembered that Kai had made breakfast.  We got up and descended the stairs.  I didn’t want to eat.  I had no appetite, but Kai went to a lot of trouble so I ate what I could.  There wasn’t much food in the house.  He made do with what I had.  Pancakes and sausage.  Breakfast of champions.
    After we ate I found my phone and scrolled to the one number I never wanted to see again.  Erin’s.  I had zero desire to speak to her so I shot off a quick text.
Radek and I are through.  You win.
    Typing those words were painful.
    I noticed I had no other messages or missed calls.  He was really gone.  What I wouldn’t give for a second chance.  To try and get him to see reason, that nothing had happened.  It was a bad set of coincidences that he took the wrong way.  I might have begged him to stay before he left, but I was not going to be that girl who called her boyfriend to beg and plead for his return after he broke it off.