coming?”
My parents and Pippa climbed into the van with me, and after saying goodbye to Matthew, Rafe joined us. Without needing to be told, the driver set off, and took us home.
As we pulled away I watched Matthew walk into the hotel with his head hanging, completely ashamed of his twin, and I felt the lump rise in my throat. My Dad wrapped his arm around me, pulling me in towards him as the floodgates opened. The realisation that I had just been dumped, in spectacular fashion, hit me and I sobbed into my Daddy’s chest, the one place that I have always felt safe and protected.
A ball bouncing at my feet brings me back to the present and a little girl runs to pick it up. She smiles an apologetic smile up at me and I give her a friendly grin back. She runs back to her family and I watch as they play happily together, reminding me of my own fantastic upbringing. I want that for myself one day.
I haven’t thought about my non-wedding day in so long and when I did in the weeks that followed it, I blamed myself. I told myself and those around me that I didn’t treat him well enough. I was always too busy, too shy, too boring. But now, with my toes in the sand and the heat from the sun on my face, I realise that I was not to blame.
Michael never treated me well, not in the entire three years that we were together. He told me what to wear, what to do, how to speak. He put me down and kept me from my family and friends. I have no idea why I put up with it for so long but at last, I have finally realised that him not showing up that day, was the best thing that ever happened to me.
I smile as I stand and start to make my way back to Pippa, Thailand seems to be having the desired effect…maybe I’ll find my inspiration here after all.
Five
Jackson
Leaving Krabi airport I feel truly calm, but then, I’m a pretty chilled guy anyway these days. I try not to really get stressed out anymore, life is too short, but walking towards my friend Steve, who is standing holding a huge sign with ‘ Jacko’ painted on it in pink, I feel really good.
Steve and I have been friends since university. He wasn’t on my course though. We met in a bar when we got into a fight over the same girl on a night out. After being kicked out and separated by friends we found out that she was a lesbian. So we apologised to the bouncers, went back inside and bought each other a pint, we were each other’s wing man from then on.
Steve travelled with me after we left University and he just hated it when we went back to England. He ended up moving to Thailand two years ago to run a karaoke bar, and it’s going really well for him. He’s marrying a lovely Thai girl soon and he seems really happy.
Settling down isn’t for me though. For me, the bigger picture is that there are a lot of places to see and a lot of women to fuck.
“Where are you staying then Jacko? You sure you don’t want to stay with us?” Steve asks as we get into his car and turn on the air conditioning.
I’m staying in a hotel in Ao Nang. I decided I deserved a touch of luxury.
“No mate thanks. I’m all booked up so I’m good. I’m looking forward to seeing Annie again though.”
Annie is Steve’s fiancée. I’m pretty sure that’s not her given name but it’s what everyone calls her. Steve decides to call in at the bar before he drops me off, any excuse for a beer and a chance to show off his little empire.
“When are you going to settle down then mate? Waking up next to the same woman each day is actually quite refreshing you know!” I can’t imagine that’s true.
“You know me Steve. Life’s too short to spend it all in one bed. Not that I’m knocking your choice, Annie’s a star!”
As much as settling down is not for me, Annie is definitely the best thing to ever happen to Steve.
“JJ, I think the world of you mate, but you can’t sacrifice your own happiness for fear of getting hurt. She wouldn’t have left you all if