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go,” I whisper to the empty room and swallow the little orange pills.  I know in no time I’ll be feeling too relaxed to worry about anything, so I go back to bed and pull the comforter over my head, ready to finally sleep. The tears are falling, still, but slowly I’m beginning to feel at peace.
    David
    I shouldn’t have done that.  I’m surprised she didn’t kick me out the minute my hand went up her skirt. And the worst thing is I just wanted to keep going until I got to the most intimate part of her, touch her and make her come all over my hand.  I wanted to hear her moan with pleasure and fall apart right there on that kitchen chair.  No matter how many times I’ve tried to get her out of my head, she somehow always finds her way back in.  Her face, her perfect smile, those sky blue eyes, everything about her is imprinted in my mind.
    The need to protect her is killing me. I just don’t know how I can do that without scaring the shit out of her.  While Lily is taking her nap, I walk into the kitchen to grab some coffee.  The drawings I’ve been working on for the last two days are a present reminder that I’m way over my head in deadlines.  I have to focus on this or my ass will never get the contract renewed.  The knock on the front door brings me back to present. Part of me hopes to find Jenny on the other side of the door, but I know better. I open the door and I’m surprised to find a crying Kate there.
    “Oh my God, are you ok, Kate?”
    “May I come in for a moment?” she sobs. 
    “Yes of course. Did something happen with Jenny?”
    “You are such a sweet young man, calling her Jenny.” For whatever reason, me calling her daughter Jenny only makes her cry even harder.  I feel kind of nervous and unsure of what to make of this woman.  Based on my experience with her daughter, I just hope she’s not as sensitive as Jenny’s been so far.
    “Would you like some water?”
    “No honey, I’m ok.  I just needed to talk to someone.  I’ve been keeping everything inside for such a long time. I can tell you’re fond of my daughter and I believe you can help her.” I watch the little lady wipe her face and get more comfortable at my kitchen table. 
    “What’s wrong with Jenny?”  She takes a deep breath and I can tell she’s having a hard time deciding how much she should share with me. 
    “I wish I could tell you everything but it’s not my place.  Some monsters did terrible things to my Jen, and she lost Sam and their little girl.” Kate is crying again and my heart breaks for her daughter’s loss.  I can’t even imagine my life without Lily, and I know what it was like to lose my wife.  It all makes sense now; her uneasiness around my little girl, the way she keeps herself locked away from the rest of the world.  Kate looks up at me, her eyes red and swollen from crying. 
    “She’s still hurt inside and so afraid to let herself love again.  But I’m her mother, and I know she likes you.  I’ve seen that today.  I know I’m asking a lot of you, but I need you to help her.  Don’t give up on her.  If you do care as much as I think you do, then help her.”
    “Look Kate, I don’t know how.  I mean, you saw how she reacts around me.  I don’t think I’m what she needs.”
    “You don’t understand.  She’s been in treatment for five years, David.  Five long and hard years.  Nothing is working.  I don’t want to see my baby girl die.  She’s already half way there.”  Her words pain me.  I’ve known her daughter for just a few months and she’s already got me all wrapped up in her. God, what am I thinking trying to save someone who doesn’t want to be saved? I’m no freaking hero and this is so much bigger than anything I’ve ever encountered.
    “Tell you what, Kate.  I promise I’ll do all I can to get her to open up but don’t expect some miracle.  I’m no doctor; I don’t know what she needs.  Most of all, you can’t force her