adult.â I folded my arms and gave him a grim frown. âNineteen. Almost twenty. A goddamn adult.â
â âGoddamn,â huh? Weâre having a serious moment here. And legally maybe you are an adult, but youâre kind of scrawny.â He grinned. He always grinned or smiled or bumped my shoulder. He kidded about calling me a puppy, but youâd have thought he was the most harmless, puppylike grown man with matching puppy brown eyes if that was all you sawâhim with me. When you saw him with other people, he was differentâharder, cynical, not to be messed with. When you saw him with people who wanted to hurt us, he was lethal. Period. And his smiles then were nothing near puppyish. They were the smile of a wolf before its jaws closed on its prey, and those brown eyes went pure rapacious amber.
Stefan could go from puppy to predator in a heartbeat and then end yours.
Right now he looked like a happy Labrador. The scar that ran along his jaw from his chin almost to his eyebrow only made his grin look wider. He yawned, up and out to work before dawn, and looked me up and down with a dubious snort. âIf adult were measured in pounds, I donât know . . . itâd be close.â
I let my frown deepen. Iâd grown since Iâd been with my brother. Iâd gone from five foot nine to five foot eleven, the same height as Stefan, but I was . . . not skinny, but light, built like a runner. Considering our lives, that was a good thing. I was just your average teenager with average brown hair and slightly less average green eyes. One of my eyes was blue and the other green. Far too distinctive, which was why I wore a colored contact lens to give me matching green eyes. To the people in town, I was nothing out of the ordinaryâas weâd planned and as being in hiding required.
I was stalling, but I had to stop. It wasnât going to be pleasant, but it was time for the truth. âThis is serious. I am an adult and you have to accept that. I mean it. Stop being so overprotective.â
âI swear,â he said, a puzzled furrow appearing between his brows. The Institute had a class on reading facial expressions. I was seventy percent effective at itânot that great among my peers, but passable. I could tell if someone was uncomfortable by a crease, whether it was physical or emotional distress by a line, and the cause of it by a flicker of their eyes toward the source. I could diagnose an STD faster than any doctor and without having to see one single crotch scratch.
âI donât have a clue why your panties are in a wad,â Stefan went on.
âDid you think I wouldnât find out?â I tilted my head, trying to figure it all out. âUnlike you, who just reads the comicsââa lie; that was only every other dayââI watch the news every day.â As well as reading it online . . . every day, several times a day, alert for any pertinent fact that someone was on to us.
âAnd?â he asked, looking more confused than before.
Oh, shit.
That cursing came naturally for the third time today. I didnât have to check my mental folder for it. Iâd made a mistake, a big one. I stopped frowning and ran a hand in unconscious imitation of him over my brown hair. I couldâve kept my face from tensingâin the acting class at the Institute we learned that perfect assassins are perfect actorsâbut I didnât. Because that would have been a lie and I wouldnât lie to Stefan. Not unless it was for his own good. âYou donât know. About Anatoly. You donât know.â
Because he was painting. Because he wasnât by a TV. Because he didnât listen to the radio that often while working.
Maybe I wasnât smart. Maybe I was as idiotic as they come.
I took a step backward, the longtime natural instinct of a former prisoner, then reversed to take one forward, a new instinct, hard won.