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again. Jacob ’ s shock only confirms that I ’ m stuck in the real world. I can ’ t act irresponsible and immature anymore. India has grown and it ’ s time for me to do the same. Jacob shakes his head a few times, scanning India ’ s handwriting and breathing too fast.
    I realised that I loved her as soon as I pulled that prank, and my anger faded. I get it, I didn ’ t protect her, but how was I supposed to?
    “ She might have ruined your life, but you broke her, Olie. You can ’ t change what you ’ ve done. I get it, I really do, but India isn ’ t the same anymore. ”
    Do I have to tell him that she is the love of my life? If that ’ s what it takes for him to help me, I will. She won ’ t accept an apology. Now, after the letter, this isn ’ t simple anymore. My pulse races when I think about her and these past moments together that never seemed real.  
    “ I ’ m going to do anything in my power to fix this, but I need people on my side. This whole thing is completely fucked up. It might take me months to make her trust me again, but I ’ m willing to wait. She ’ s the one that I have to fight for, even if she ’ s burning with hate for me. ”
    “ And you didn ’ t know? ” he asks, pausing like he needs to take a few deep breaths. “ That she was raped? You had no idea what happened at that party? ”
    I slam my fists into the wall, losing my mind again. Jacob doesn ’ t move, watching me with a shocked expression on his face.
    “ She never told me, and then she just started hurting me. Fuck! I should have suspected something. All these years holding that huge grudge. ”
    “ Dora must know. When we were in Gargle I knew that something was up. India looked uncomfortable all the time. ”
    “ It doesn ’ t matter. I won ’ t bother her, but I need to come up with something, Jacob. She has to trust me again. ”
    He doesn ’ t respond for a very long time, breathing heavily and rubbing his hands over his jeans. I hate the silence. She apologised to me, so why won ’ t I just let her go?
    “ Listen, Oliver, I know that this is bad timing, but I ’ ve got to tell you something. Russell kept asking her out before she started sorting out things with you, and yesterday she agreed to. date him. It ’ s over, man. She is off the market because you fucked up. They are officially dating. ”
    I stare at him for ages, digesting his words slowly and carefully. I must look like a complete moron right now. India has chosen Evans over me. I tangle my hands in my hair, squeezing my eyes shut, trying to breathe. This is how she is paying me back. I hurt her and she starts dating the guy I can ’ t stand. It takes me a moment to regain my control and Jacob is watching me all the time. India is much stronger than I thought. She is already fighting back, showing me that my pranks can only go so far.
    “ It doesn ’ t matter. She loves me. I heard her say it in the restaurant. Those three words came straight from her heart, ” I assure him.
    “ I don ’ t know what you expect, man. You have to wait until this thing blows over before you consider your options. I ’ m sorry to say it, but it ’ s a lost cause. Russell won ’ t let her go now that they are going out. ”
    “ He fucking doesn ’ t own her. She ’ s only doing it to get back at me. She sent the letters when we were together, knowing that we were going to do something special during that weekend. She was certain then that I felt the same way. ”
    “ What do you want me to do? ” Jacob asks.
    “ Don ’ t do anything yet. Be on my side and please keep the letters to yourself. ”
    He agrees, not convinced that he should leave this in my hands. Dora hates my guts and Jacob is in a difficult situation. Despite how long we ’ ve known each other, he is in love and if he has to choose, he will take Dora ’ s side.
    Jacob disappears from my room, leaving me with my own thoughts. For a second I want to bang my head against the