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wall. I could have turned this whole thing around. I treated her like garbage when she arrived and that in spite that, she still apologised. We were together and we were happy.
    All these years, I tried to convince myself that my love for her had faded. As soon as she was in my life again, these new emotions turned me into some monster that realised too late that love is unconditional and doesn ’ t just disappear.
    Jacob wouldn ’ t joke about the fact that India is dating Russell. I ’ ve seen him around her. I ’ ve warned him to keep away from her. That she was off-limits. Obviously, he doesn ’ t care what I think. After all, she is single now. Those few short weeks that we had together don ’ t mean anything now.
    For years I ’ ve been building a wall of hatred between us, and if I want to crush it, I ’ m going have to work really hard. My mind won ’ t stop working and when I go to bed, thoughts about India keep suffocating one after another, bringing me down. She went through hell and then Christian died without paying for what he ’ d done. Even after the funeral she probably felt like she couldn ’ t tell anyone what happened that night. In some ways, I understand why she was holding back the truth. Christian was so perfect that no one would have believed her. She was his girlfriend, so why would he want to hurt her? But he raped her and then crashed his car. India was trying to protect herself, and I was the only one that could help her ease the pain.
    When morning comes I struggle to get out of bed, only because I ’ m faced with the fact that now India belongs to someone else . It ’ s my second year, and if I want to keep playing, I need to keep training hard without any breaks. My first two classes are starting in an hour. My housemate told me that Jacob got up early and left, heading toward campus. Jhonny is already stoned, but he tells me later that he is going to Uni in the afternoon.
    I throw some clothes on myself and head out, knowing that I need to keep away from trouble. India needs to see that I didn ’ t just dump her for someone else. She has to see that I can control my temper. Jacob is right. I fucked up with her, so I have to stay away for a few days, maybe a couple of weeks. Wait until all that drama blows over. This whole thing seems like a huge task, but I ’ m going to do anything I can to make her trust me again, to make her love me again.

Chapter Five
    Decisions.

    Present

    Sports development class drags longer than it should. Jacob hasn ’ t shown up, and I have a funny feeling that he isn ’ t fully convinced I ’ m ready to change. I can ’ t wait to finally see her. She probably won ’ t even look at me, but that ’ s OK for now.
    Straight after the class, I head to fitness and training, followed by advance psychology. Nothing stuck in my head, and all the girls kept glancing at me, giggling, probably wondering with whom I ’ m going to go out next. They can think what they want, but at the end of the day, the only person worth my attention doesn ’ t want me anymore.
    I want to scream that the only girl I was ever interested in is now with some douche and I screwed up badly. It ’ s easier to stay away from her. Maybe this will work in my favour.
    Everyone keeps staring at me. I hear snickers and giggles. All the eyes in the canteen follow me as I pick up some food. My shoulder is aching and when a few guys from my team call me to their table, I ignore them, waving them off. I ’ m not in the mood for any discussion about India. In the past everyone knew who I was sleeping with. This time I want to keep my business to myself.
    “ Hey, Oliver, how are you? ”
    A familiar voice startles me and I already regret that I chose to sit alone, because MacKenzie slides herself next to me. She ’ s showing off her tanned legs, but I dart my eyes away from her, knowing that she is bad news. Fine, we had some good times together, but I never promised her anything. It