It didnât matter, because now she was reminded of how often heâd been late for things toward the end of their relationship. It wasnât a part of her past she cared to relive.
Heâd always had a good excuse, rushing in from meeting with one environmental group or another, blaming his tardiness on an issue that had to be discussed. But the truth was, at the end of college, at the end of them , heâd loved his activism way more than her. Sheâd notice him during their dates glancing at his watch to make sure he was on time for his next event. Their time together must have seemed boring to him compared to all that political urgency.
It wasnât that she didnât support his causes. She wanted people to stop cutting down the rain forest, too. She wanted wars to end and endangered species to be saved and oil spills to be stopped. But she hadnât felt the same need to devoteher entire life to protesting those problems.
Plus, sheâd had her own cause back then. Wade. Maybe it was just a small cause, but it had been hers for as long as she could remember. Wade was so bright, and he was her baby brother, and sheâd spent her childhood keeping him safe. When sheâd gone away to college sheâd been sure that if she could just keep him on track and get him through high school, heâd be okay.
So sheâd worked extra jobs and sent him the money. Sheâd paid for cell phones so they could talk daily. And during those conversations, she tried to override the negative influence of their dad and brothers. And when that hadnât worked, sheâd driven to Marker Ranch to take him with her when sheâd started grad school.
Nora took one last gulp of her bad wine and stood up, pulling her jacket off the adjacent bar stool. She wasnât that love-struck college girl anymore. She didnât have any reason to wait around for Todd in a dive bar.
âNora!â Todd strode across the stained floor, bringing the scent of fresh night air with him. He wore faded jeans and leather hiking boots, and a piece of straw clung to his hair. She reached up automatically and pulled it off, then jerked her hand back when she realized what sheâd done.
âIâm sorry Iâm late. One of my mares is foaling. Iâve got people with her now, but I had to wait for them to get there before I could leave.â
She set her coat back down, uncertain what to do now. It was, as usual, a reasonable excuse.
âLet me buy you a drink. Please donât go. I would have called but I didnât have your number...â His voice trailed off and she knew he was making the connection to the previous night. The look of discomfort on his face was almost funny.
âPlus you know that I donât have a phone. Right?â
He was silent, staring. And then she saw it...the realization, creeping across his face in slow motion. He knew that she knew who he was. And what heâd done. His eyes went wide and his bronzed skin paled a shade. âNora, Iâm...â
âSorry you chucked my phone into the desert? I went back this morning, but I couldnât find it. You have a good arm.â
âYou know it was me.â It came out heavily, with regret and maybe some relief.
âYes.â She studied him, trying to picture the mask on his face. Now that she knew it was him, it was hard to imagine how sheâd not seen it.
âIâll get you a new phone. I promise. Tomorrow.â He gestured toward the bar. âStay? Have a drink with me? We obviously have a few things to discuss.â
It was tempting to leave. To leave him uncomfortable and wondering what sheâd do next. But unfinished business would leave her uncomfortable, too. âOnly if you order me something way better than this wine.â
He winced. âUgh. I forgot that you like wine. This is not the place to drink it. How about something a little more foolproof?