standing there as if he had a slap in the face.
“I, um, j ust wanted to make sure you made it home OK, because I knew you walked to work.”
Before I was able to say a word , Jared spoke up. “I think I can handle that, so your services are no longer needed. You can leave.” I suddenly felt Jared’s arm tighten around my waist as if he was laying claim and that just wasn’t about to happen. Again, before I could speak up Viktor chimed in.
“Despite your coziness and tight grip on her due to your lack of confidence, I wi ll leave when she tells me to.” Viktor’s eyes narrowed and I got the distinct feeling they were both about to pound on their chests to see who the alpha male was here.
“I’ll tell you what.” At this point, I was furious. I was furious with them both. Here was Viktor, who left with someone already and now it seemed like he wanted extra, and Jared too. I pushed myself off the couch and grabbed my jacket and purse. “You both can stay here together.” I turned to Jared. “It would make sense if we got together, especially considering the type of people we are, but you were with someone tonight and I play second fiddle to no one.” Now it was Viktor’s turn. “I can make it home by myself.” On that note, I walked away from Jared and right past Viktor, not giving either one of them a second glance.
The walk home was cold and lonely. Thinking about the cold and lonely part, it reminded me of how I was told several times by past boyfriends that this was how I would end up. I guess it was better to get used to it. I thought about everything that had happened tonight and realized that Viktor wasn’t wearing what he had on at the club earlier tonight. He wore blue jeans that were loose in some areas but also tight in others and a black button up shirt with silver pin stripes. When he walked in on Jared and me, he was in black Adidas wind pants and a black fitted long sleeve that showed every ripple he had on his toned stomach. His hair wasn’t even gelled and spiked like it was, either. He had already showered and cleaned up.
I stood there dumbfounded.
Why did I care in the first place? It didn’t matter. I was nobody’s second choice or back up and I wasn’t going to start being one now. I made it to my loft and struggled with wanting to go to his loft to apologize—to apologize for the drama, the flirting, and him seeing me kissing Jared. But my will overpowered everything else and I made it into my place and locked the door behind me. All I wanted at that moment was to go to sleep and see if Declan visited me in my dreams. Tonight was the only night I welcomed him.
Chapter 2
Walking into my place had never felt sweeter, and given the added bonus of being alone, it was even better. Dropping my coat and purse onto my couch, I made my way to the bathroom and started the shower. I couldn’t wait to wash away everything that happened tonight. I set the water on scalding hot and left to retrieve a Blue Moon from the refrigerator. I couldn’t stop thinking about Viktor, much less him leaving with someone else. Why this bothered me I had no idea. I only just met the man. And then there was Jared. What was his deal tonight? Jared had always been flirty, but tonight he was too eager to lay claim. It seemed the harder I tried to think about everything, the more it made my head hurt. So, I refused to spend any more time thinking about them.
I made my way back to the shower, where I strip ped, and the sudden feeling of being alone slowly crept up with a vengeance. I couldn’t help but shiver, and I climbed into the hot shower. Standing there in the running water, I reluctantly began to torture myself. I wondered when was the last time I felt whole, warm, or loved. That’s when I noticed that the water wasn’t the only thing running down my face; tears were streaming down as well. I grabbed the sweet smelling soap I spent a fortune on and began washing