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âI can clean my own bathtub,â Eddie said, slipping his wallet into his back pocket, then setting his empty coffee mug on the corner of her desk. âYou have a nice night, now. Iâll see myself out.â
Mala sank into her desk chair after he left, only then noticing her answering machine was flashing. She really should get Caller ID one of these days, but right now it was ranked way on the bottom of a depressingly long to-do list. She halfheartedly punched the play button.
A hang up. Just as well, since she didnât think she could conduct a logical conversation right now if she tried.
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Eddie stomped up the stairs to the apartment, his forehead knit so tight, he thought it might stay that way. And he wasnât breathing right, either. Doggone itâwhat had he been thinking? In the space of a half hour, heâd managed to break every single rule in his book, number one being, âDonât get involved, bonehead.â
He batted open the doorânobodyâd bothered to lock it, seeings as he was coming right back up, anywayâand went inside, jerking back the drapes and opening a living room window to air out the place some. Not that he hadnât been in places thatâd smelled a far sight worseâ¦.
Shoot, it mustâve embarrassed the life out of Mala, showing him the place in this condition. Women tended to get their drawers in a knot about stuff like that. And this oneâs drawers, he imagined, thinking back to when he used to watch her scurrying from class to class, her arms always loaded with about a dozen books, had probably been knotted since she was three.
Those eyes of hersâ¦damn, damn, damn. Fierce and questioning and scared and so incredibly honest, even behind that puny veil of control, it knocked him clear into next week.
Hell, Eddie was the last person to think about reassuring some woman he barely knew that thingsâd work out. About reassuring anybody. He didnât much believe things did, for the most part. But he was at least used to dodging the crap life seemed determined to fling in his path. If Eddie didnât like the way things were going, he could pretty much just up and walk away. Mala Koleski, though, wasnât the type of person who could do that. Not with two kids, especially. He could tell that right off, and he admired her for it. Which was why Eddie couldnât help thinking that here was someone who deserved whatever it was she wanted.
That she needed to know that.
Still, what the Sam Hill had come over him, getting all personal like that? And then, even worse, admitting he was attracted to her? Eddie rammed a hand through his sorry-looking hair, then just held it there, even though most of his brain cells had long since left the building. Sweet heavenly days, heâd never wanted to kiss a woman so bad in his life. And he sure had never wanted to take one in his arms and tuck her head against his chest and justâ¦hold her.
He slipped off his jacket, threw it on the sofa, then went on back to the bedroom to make up the bed. It smelled much better in here, thank heaven. Like freshly washed linens.
And Mala.
With a groan of frustration, Eddie sank onto the edge of the bare mattress, scrubbing a hand across his face.
Okay, so heâd admitted his attraction because something told him itâd been a long time since anyone had let Mala Koleski Whatever-Her-Married-Name-Was know she was attractive. That a woman didnât have to look like those emaciated Hollywood actresses for a man to get turned on. So he figured she should know that she was worth a manâs time and attention,doggone it. Even if he couldnât be that man for more than about two minutes.
But that was okay, since he figured hell would freeze over before sheâd take him up on his offer, such as it wasnât. Women like her just didnât do that, get involved with strays like him.
A weird, empty kind of