them. In fact, not talking makes it easier to watch. And listen. See things about folks maybe they canât always see for themselves.â
Anger, apprehension, curiosity all spurted through her. âAnd what is it you think you see about me?â
âIâm not sure. Someone whoâs lost sight of who she is, maybe.â
The gentleness in his voice, more unexpected than the words themselves, brought a sharp, hard lump to her throat. For three years, sheâd refused to let herself feel vulnerable. In the space of a few minutes, this manâthis strangerâthreatened to destroy all her hard work.
Her fingers tightened around the handle of her mug. âDo you make it a habit of going around analyzing people without being asked?â
He shook his head, his expression serious. Genuinely concerned. âNo, maâam. Not at all.â
âThen why do I rate?â
âBecause it burns my butt to see how much youâve changed,â he said simply, softly, waving the cup in her direction. âThat the girl who didnât seem to have a care in the world now seems like sheâs taken on all of âem.â
She laughed, although that was the last thing she felt like doing. âIâm twenty years older than I was then. Iâm a divorcée with two kids and my own business. I have bills out the wazoo, a car that needs coaxing every morning to get going and parents who worry about me far more than they should be worrying about someone this close to forty. So, yeah, I guess Iâve got a little more on my plate than worrying about acing my trig exam or how many balloons to order for the senior prom.â
âThatâs not what Iâm talking about.â
Zing went her heart, thudding and tripping inside her chest. âI told you,â she said quietly, desperately, scrabbling away from treacherous ground, âIâm just looking for a tenant. Not a buddy. Orâ¦â She shut her eyes, dragged the unsaid out into the open. âOr anything else.â
âAnything else?â he drawled on a slow, knowing grin.
Embarrassment heated her cheeks. Cripes, she was more out of the loop than she thought. âIâm sorry. I have no idea where that came fromââ
âIt came right from where you thought it came from,â he said, his voice low and warm and tired-rough. âFrom me.â
Oh, dear God.
âI canâtâ¦I mean, we c-canâtââ
âI know that. Which is why Iâm not really coming on to you, even though thatâs how youâre no doubt reading it.â She frowned, thoroughly confused. He smiled, and her insides went all stupid on her. âWhat I mean is, I canât help it if Iâm sending out âIâm interestedâ vibes. I am,â he said with a no-big-deal shrug. âBut I get what youâre saying. And thatâs fine with me.Iâm not lookinâ for anything, either. Not now. Probably not ever. The idea of settling down gives me nightmares, if you want to know the truth. I just donât have whatever it takes to be a family man, I guess. And like you said, the kidsâ¦â He let the sentence trail off. âBut that doesnât mean a few not-very-gentlemanly thoughts havenât crossed my mind in the past few hours. About what things could be like if both of us werenât so dead set on avoiding complications.â
Her ears started to ring. âYouâre attracted to me?â
There went that sin-never-looked-so-good smile again. âDidnât I just say exactly that? Oh, Lord, lady,â he said on a chuckle. âFor a bright woman, you are sure slow on the uptake about some things, arenât you?â
Apparently so. Well, yes, thereâd been that hmmm thing back at the restaurant, but she didnât think that was anything personal. So now she stared at her coffee for a good three or four seconds, luxuriating in the idea of being