http://www.processtext.com/abclit.html
isn't it?''
`Ì suppose so. Look at me, Clyde.''
My heart stuttered but my head stayed down and my eyes kept tracing over BEverley 6 4214. Part of me wondered if
hell was hot enough for Mavis Weld. When I spoke, my voice came out steady. I was
surprised but grateful. `Ìn fact, I
might take a whole year of sick days. In Carmel, maybe. Sit out on the deck with the
American Mercury in my lap and
watch the big ones come in from Hawaii.''
``Look at me.''
I didn't want to, but my head came up just the same. He was sitting in the client's
chair where Mavis had once sat, and
Ardis McGill, and Big Tom Hatfield. Even Vernon Klein had sat there once, when he got
those pictures of his daughter
wearing nothing but an opium grin and her birthday suit. Sitting there with the same
patch of California sun slanting
across his features--features I most certainly had seen before. The last time had been
less than an hour ago, in my
bathroom mirror. I'd been scraping a Gillette Blue Blade over them.
The expression of sympathy in his eyes--in my eyes--was the most hideous thing I'd
ever seen, and when he held out
his hand--held outmy hand--I felt a sudden urge to wheel around in my swivel chair,
get to my feet, and go running
straight out my seventh-floor office window. I think I might even have done it, if I
hadn't been so confused, so totally
lost. I've read the word unmanned plenty of times--it's a favorite of the pulp-smiths
Generated by ABC Amber LIT Conv erter, http://www.processtext.com/abclit.html
and sob-sisters--but this was the
first time I'd ever actually felt that way.
Suddenly the office darkened. The day had been perfectly clear, I would have sworn to
that, but a cloud had crossed the
sun just the same. The man on the other side of the desk was at least ten years older
than I was, maybe fifteen, his hair
almost completely white while mine was still almost all black, but that didn't change
the simple fact--no matter what
he was calling himself or how old he looked, he was me. Had I thought his voice
sounded familiar? Sure. The way your
own voice sounds familiar--although not quite the way it sounds inside your own head-when you hear it on a
recording.
He picked my limp hand up off the desk, shook it with the briskness of a real-estate
agent on the make, then dropped it
again. It hit the desk-blotter with a plop, landing on Mavis Weld's telephone number.
When I raised my fingers, I saw
that Mavis's number was gone. In fact, all the numbers I'd scratched on the blotter
over the years were gone. It was as
clear as . . . well, as clear as a hardshell Baptist's conscience.
``Jesus,'' I croaked. ``Jesus Christ.''
``Not at all,'' the older version of me sitting in the client's chair on the other
side of the desk said. ``Landry. Samuel D.
Landry. At your service.''
_______________________________________________________________________
Generated by ABC Amber LIT Conv erter, http://www.processtext.com/abclit.html
V. An Interview with God.
Even as rattled as I was, it only took me two or three seconds to place the name,
probably because I'd heard it such a
short time ago. According to Painter Number Two, Samuel Landry was the reason why the
long dark hall leading to my
office was soon going to be oyster white. Landry was the owner of the Fulwider
Building.
A crazy idea suddenly occurred to me, but its patent craziness did nothing to dim the
sudden blaze of hope which
accompanied it. They--whoever they are--say that everyone on the face of the earth
has a double. Maybe Landry was
mine. Maybe we were identical twins, unrelated doubles who had somehow been born to
different parents and ten or
fifteen years out of step in time with each other. The idea did nothing to explain the
rest of the day's high weirdness,
but it was something to hang onto, damn it.
``What can I do for you, Mr. Landry?'' I asked. I was trying like hell, but my voice
was