said. I sipped some water.
âWhy not? You mean you donât need to because youâre boobless?â
I almost spat out the water.
âAw, come on,â Aunt Shelby said. âSo youâre a little behind in that department. Big deal. Itâs nothing but genetics,anyway! Your mom and I were both boobless until seventh grade. And youâre going into seventh this year, am I right?â
I nodded.
âThen youâll definitely need back-to-school bras. Itâll be fun! We could make an outing of itâfirst Winnieâs, then lunch at Luluâs Lobster Shack.â
âAunt Shelby,â I said firmly. âThat sounds very nice, but I can just go bra shopping with my friends. At the mall. Val takes us all the time.â
It was the truth, too. Val did drive us to the mall, like, once a month, sometimes specifically to go to Shy Violetâs, a store that sold all kinds of underwear things. But I never went on those daysâI couldnât imagine actually buying anything in there. Besides, I didnât want to undress in front of my friends.
I could tell Aunt Shelby felt disappointed that Iâd turned her down, and for a second I felt sorry. But the thought of bra shopping with her was horrific. Sheâd probably discuss my boobless chest with Winnie right in front of me. In front of the schnauzer, too. It would be worse than a camp cabin.
Although hearing that Mom was flat at my ageâthat felt nice to know somehow. It made me feel closer to her, in a funny sort of way.
But at the same time, when I got into bed that night, it made me miss her even more.
Blueberry Pancakes
EVERY SUMMER GOES TOO FAST, in my opinion. Even the kind of sticky summer where the weekdays and weekends basically just melt together.
But one weekend stood out, the time Dad and Nate drove up for a visit, and we ate crabs and corn on the cob and I introduced them to all the cats. Nate wasnât too interested, but Dadâs favorite was Escobar; when he crumpled a wad of paper and threw it across the living room, Escobar fetched it for him over and over.
Before they drove back to Maplebrook, they pulled me aside.
âSo howâs it going up here?â Dad asked quietly.
âOkay,â I said.
Nate poked me. âSheâs not making you eat toenail fungus?â
âOh, we eat it all the time,â I answered. âFungus fondue. Fungus upside-down cake. Fungus à la mode.â
My brother grinned. âFungus pizza. Deep-fried fungus with fungus gravy.â
âFungus sorbet. General Tsoâs toenail fungus.â
âAll right, you two,â Dad said, smiling a little. âBut seriously, Lee-lee, if you want to come homeââ
For a second I thought about it. But none of my friends would be home for weeks, and Maine wasnât terrible. I loved all the cats. Aunt Shelby was Aunt Shelbyâbut sometimes she could be fun. And there were times when her eyes lit up and her voice crackled in the middle of a sentence; thatâs when she reminded me of Mom.
âNo, Iâm fine,â I insisted. âReally, Dad.â
Another weekend Aunt Shelby took me on a seal-sighting boat, which I loved. We also went bicycling a couple of times with her âman friend,â Todd, and picked blueberries along the side of the road.
During the week I mostly read Book Two of HiberNationand hung out with the cats, or I walked on the beach and collected shells and sea glass. I thought I saw Tanner once or twice from a distance, and I definitely saw Orange Bikini a few times. But she pretended not to recognize me when I said hello to her at the snack bar, so I decided she was a snot. And anyway, she was in high school.
A few times a youngish red-haired woman wearing a UMass tee started a conversation with me as I searched for seashells. She told me her name was Yazmin and that she was studying marine biology in college. But she didnât want to talk about the