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vision contracted into a tunnel, the thoughts that came to him were of the scientific explanation for that phenomenon. It was caused by anoxia, and was, after all, commonly experienced even in situations that weren’t immediately life-threatening.
    He was momentarily surprised not to be feeling any panic or pain. But, then again, that was normal, too, he knew: a sense of euphoria also went with oxygen deprivation. And so he managed a certain detachment. He was surprised to be conscious at all; he knew he’d been shot in the torso. Surely they’d given him a general anesthetic before performing surgery, and he
must
be in surgery by now, but…
    But there was no doubt his mind was active. He tried, and failed, to open his eyes; tried, and failed, to sit up; tried, and failed, to speak. And, unlike some horror stories he’d heard about patients feeling every scalpel cut and stitch while supposedly knocked out, he was experiencing no pain at all, thank—well, thank biochemistry!
    Ah, and now the white light had begun to appear: pure, brilliant, but not at all painful to…well, not to
look
at; he wasn’t seeing with his eyes, after all. But to
contemplate.
    A pristine, bright, soothing, inviting light…
    And then, just as those who’d come back from the brink said it sometimes does, his life began to flash in front of his eyes.
    A kindly female face.
    A playground.
    Childhood friends.
    A public school.
    But he didn’t remember all the graffiti, all the litter, the broken stonework, and—
    No, no, that was ridiculous.
Of course
he remembered it—or he wouldn’t be seeing it now.
    But…
    A knife. Blood.
    Tattered clothes.
    The air shimmering. Unbearable heat. Screams. The stench of…yes, of burning flesh.
    No, no, he’d been a good person! He
had.
He’d done his best always. And even with him agreeing to Counterpunch, he couldn’t be going to hell!
    A metaphoric deep breath; he had no control over his body, but it
felt
like he was inhaling.
    There is no hell. No heaven, either.
    But the
heat.
The flames. The screams.
    There is no hell!
    All of it was explicable, a natural phenomenon: just the way the brain responded to oxygen starvation.
    The images changed, the smells changed, the sounds changed. The hellish vista was replaced by a city street at night.
    Another woman’s face.
    And much more, in rapid succession: people, incidents, events.
    It
was
a life review flashing before him.
    But it wasn’t
his
life that he saw.

CHAPTER 6
    “EEG is erratic!”
    “BP continues to fall!”
    “We’re losing him!”
    Eric Redekop lifted his head to look at his team as he continued the manual heart massage. A nurse named Ann January daubed his forehead with a cloth, picking up the sweat. “No,” he said simply. “We are
not.
I’m not going down in history as the surgeon who couldn’t save the president.”
    NIKKI Van Hausen looked at her hands—and an image of them covered with blood filled her mind. She shook her head, trying to dispel the grisly sight—but it came back to her even more forcefully: her hands red and dripping, and—
    My God!
    And she was holding a knife, and its blade was slick and crimson.
    More images: cutting into skin, blood welling up from the wound.
    Again: another cut, more blood. And again: another thrust, this time blood spurting.
    She sat down and looked—really looked—at her hands: the smooth pale skin, the tiny scar along the side of her right index finger from a wineglass that had broken while she was washing it, the silver ring she wore with a turquoise cabochon, the painted nails—red, yes, but not blood-red.
    But again images of her hands covered in blood came to her. And beneath the blood, peeking out here and there: gloves. Like a murderer who knew that fingerprints would otherwise be left behind.
    Her heart was pounding. “What’s happening?” she said softly, although no one was paying any attention to her. She raised her voice. “What’s happening to me?”
    That