bicycles. Am I missing something extraordinary?â
âNot extraordinary, but so normal . The wind in yourhair, the exhilaration of sweeping down a big hill, racing through puddles. I just canât imagine anyone not having those lovely garden variety experiences.â
He was taken aback by the genuine sympathy in her tone. âYou feel sorry for me because Iâve rarely ridden a bike down a country lane? And never with a picnic lunch in the basket?â
âI didnât say I felt sorry for you!â
âI can hear it in your voice.â
âOkay,â she admitted, âI feel sorry for you.â
âWell, donât,â he snapped. âNobody ever has before, and I donât see that it should start now. I occupy a place of unusual privilege and power. I am not a man who inspires sympathy, nor one who wants it, either.â
âThereâs no need to be so touchy. It just struck me as sad. And it occurred to me that if youâve never done that, youâve probably never played in a mud puddle and felt the exquisite pleasure of mud squishing between your toes. Youâve probably never had a few drinks and thrown some darts. Youâve probably never known the absolute anticipation of having to save your money for a Triple Widgie Hot Fudge Sundae from Lawrenceâs.â
âI fail to see your point.â
âItâs no wonder you canât dance! Youâve missed almost everything thatâs important. But whatâs to feel sorry about?â
He was silent. Finally, he said, âI didnât know my life had been so bereft.â
She shrugged. âSomebody had to tell you.â
And then he chuckled. And so did she. He realized she had succeeded in making just a little of the tension leave him. But at the same time, they had just shared something that took a little brick out of the wall of both their defenses.
âWell,â he said dryly. âImagine doing a bike ride with an entourage of security people, and members of the press jumping out in front of you to get that perfect picture. Kind of takes the country lane serenity out of the picture, doesnât it?â
âThe peaceful feeling is leaving me,â she admitted. âIs it a hard way to live?â
âI donât have a hard life,â he said. âThe opposite is probably true. Everyone envies me. And this lifestyle.â
âThatâs not what I asked,â she said quietly. âI wondered about the price, of not knowing if people like you for you or your title, of having to be on guard against the wrong photo being taken, the wrong word being uttered.â
For an astounding moment it felt as if she had invaded very private territory. It annoyed him that the one brick coming out of the wall seemed to be paving the way for its total collapse.
For a moment he glimpsed something about himself being reflected back in her eyes.
He was alone. And she knew it. She saw what others had not seen.
He reminded himself that he liked being alone.
He allowed the moment to pass and instead of telling her anything remotely personal, he said, âHow about fly-fishing a quiet stream? For my relaxing thing that I think about?â
Ah, he was shoving bricks back in the wall. Thank goodness!
âPerfect,â she said. The perfect picture. Impersonal. âThat kind of fishing even has a rhythm, doesnât it? See? Hold that picture in your head, because the way you are moving right now is much better.â
Of course the minute she said that, it wasnât!
âIâve fished on occasion,â she said. âNothing as fancy as fly-fishing. A pole and a bobber on a placid pond on a hot day.â
âReally? Iâve always found women make scenes when they catch fish.â
She rapped him with sharp playfulness on his shoulder. He was so startled by the familiarity of the move he stumbled.
âWhat a terrible stereotype,â she