tears.
â Listen, â she said, desperate to tell them before it all disappeared again. â This is what happened.â
The story tumbled out. She started with Ritchie scrambling onto the train before the doors closed, his wide little face aglow with triumph. By the time she got to where she was sprawled in the road, with all the faces, and the horns blaring at her, she was crying. The policeman nodded, writing everything down. He was quiet when sheâd finished, tapping his notebook with the top of his pen.
âHe is my child.â Emmaâs voice shook. âHe is .â
âYet, according to your story,â the policeman said, âyou went to the bathroom and left him with a woman youâd never met before.â
The nurse squeezed Emmaâs hand.
The policeman said: âYou said that the child got trapped on a train when the doors closed. Did anyone else see this happening?â
âNo.â Then Emma remembered. âYes. A man. He pulled me back from the tunnel.â
âDid this man give you his name?â
âNo.â
The policeman didnât say anything.
âWhy would I lie about something like this?â
âIâm not saying youâre lying, Ms. Turner. But why didnât you report this to anyone? Press the alarm to call for help? Mention it to the guard you spoke to? He says you only reported a lost handbag.â
âI have a child!â Emma shouted. âWhy would I be here telling you heâs been kidnapped instead of looking after him?â
She was kneeling up on the bed by this time, thrusting her face towards the policeman. He didnât react. He calmly held his notebook and focused on a point between Emmaâs eyes.
âIs there any way,â he said, âthat you can verify that you have a child?â
âWhat do you mean?â
âWho do you live with? Who else knows Ritchie?â
âI donât live with anyone.â
âThere must be someone who knows you both. Family members? Friends?â
Emma thought wildly.
âEven a health visitor or GP?â
âMy GP. Dr. Stanford. In Hammersmith. She knows Ritchie.â
âWeâll contact her immediately. Do you have an address?â
âItâs Walker Square. The health center. But what about Ritchie? What are you doing about him?â
âAs soon as weâve spoken to Dr. Stanford, weâll be able to proceed from there. Weâll go as quickly as we can.â
âButââ
âIâll be back as soon as I can, Ms. Turner.â The policeman was halfway through the curtains. âAs soon as Iâve confirmed these details youâve given.â
He pushed his way out and left.
âLook for him!â Emma shouted after him. âFind my child. You have to believe me.â She slammed against the pillows, weeping with frustration. The cotton wool was back again. She forced it away. She had to stay awake. She had to make them look for Ritchie. Oh God, how long had he been gone? Every minute he was moving further away from her. She sat up again, her heart racing with terror. Where was he? What did that woman want with him? What if Emma never saw him again? The thought made her want to throw up. This was a nightmare. It wasnât real. Any minute now, she would wake up and find herself back in her flat, with Ritchie in the cot by her bed. Only, a too-large part of her knew that she wouldnât. She had an enormous sense of failure. She had failed Ritchie. Sheâd always known it was going to happen, and now, at long last, it had.
A man in a pink shirt was beside her bed, saying something. His mouth opened and closed. Emma stared at him in confusion. His voice swam at her brain.
âAre you listening, Emma?â he was saying.
âIâve told you,â she said in despair. âIâve told you everything I know. Why arenât you out looking for him?â
âBear with me,
Laurence Cossé, Alison Anderson