a barbecue restaurant. The smell was so real, so pungent. But the food never came, no matter how many times I craned my neck to look into the kitchen. Then, suddenly, I heard a customer howl.
I awoke to the sound of Jean Philippe crying.
I rolled over and saw him with his head down, his arms limp by his sides. The âLordâ had a hand on his shoulder. The space between them, where Bernadette had been resting, was empty.
âJean Philippe,â I croaked. âWhere is your wife?â
No answer. Nevin was awake, tending his wounded leg. When I caught his gaze, he just shook his head. Mrs. Laghari was awake, too, but she just stared out at the dark ocean.
âWhere is Bernadette?â I repeated, rising. âDid something happen? Where did she go?â
âWe donât know ,â Nevin finally said.
He pointed at Jean Philippe and the Lord.
âThey wonât talk.â
Land
Leaning against a large rock, LeFleur removed the notebook and examined it closely. Its pages were stuck together, likely from the salt, and he realized this would be a delicate process. But there was writing. In English. He felt his hands shaking. He looked up at the breaking waves and contemplated what to do.
Most of his life, LeFleur had been a rule-follower. Heâd done well in school, earned badges in scouts, scored high on his police tests. Heâd even thought of leaving Montserrat for England to train as a constable. He was a good size for law enforcement, tall, broad-shouldered, with a thick mustache that hid his smile and made him appear quite serious.
But then he met Patrice. A New Yearâs Eve party, fourteen years earlier, part of Montserratâs annual festival thatfeatures parades, costumed performers, and a Calypso King competition. They danced. They drank. They danced some more. They kissed at midnight and tumbled passionately into the new year. They saw each other every day for the next few months, and there soon seemed little doubt they would marry.
By summer, they had. They purchased a small house, which they painted yellow, and bought a four-poster bed where they spent a great many hours. LeFleur would smile just watching Patrice walk away from the bed and smile even more watching her walk back. Forget England, he thought. He wasnât going anywhere.
A few years later, he and Patrice had a child, Lilly, and they doted on her as new parents do, taking pictures of every move she made, teaching her nursery songs, carrying her on their shoulders for trips to the market. LeFleur painted their second bedroom a light-pink shade and added dozens of little pink stars on the ceiling. Under those stars, Jarty and Patrice put Lilly to bed every night. He remembered feeling so good during those days, it seemed undeserved, as if someone had accidentally given him a double share of contentment.
Then Lilly died.
She was only four years old. Sheâd been visiting Patriceâs mother, Doris, and that morning theyâd gone to the beach. Doris, who suffered from heart issues, had taken a newmedication at breakfast, not realizing it would make her drowsy. In a beach chair, under the hot sun, she fell asleep. When she blinked her eyes open, she saw her granddaughter facedown in the surf, motionless.
Lilly was buried a week later. LeFleur and Patrice had been in a fog ever since. They stopped going out. They barely slept. They crawled through their days and fell into their pillows at night. Food lost its taste. Conversation faded. A numbness draped over them, and they would stare for long stretches at nothing in particular, until one would say, âWhat?â and the other would say, âWhat?â and the other would say, âI didnât say anything.â
Four years passed. In time, to their neighbors and friends, it appeared as if the couple had reached an equilibrium. In truth, theyâd become their own private Montserrat, blown apart, existing in ashes. LeFleur shut the door