got an answer from Jean Philippe. He had been silent for hours, softly crying. The Lord, sitting next to him, twirled a raft paddle between his palms.
Finally Mrs. Laghari rose to her knees, still wearing the long pink T-shirt Geri had given her, her salt-and-pepper hair pushed back behind her ears. She is a short woman, but she commands respect. With a determined voice, she said, âMr. Jean Philippe. I realize you are grieving. But you must tell us what happened to Bernadette. We cannot have secrets. After this man revived herââshe pointed to the Lordââdid he do something else?â
âThe Lord did no harm, Mrs. Laghari,â Jean Philippe whispered. âBernadette was dead.â
Several of us gasped.
âBut she had woken up,â Nevin said.
âShe seemed fine,â I added.
âWe thought he healed her,â Nina said.
âWait,â Yannis said. âI asked if he healed her, and he said he didnât.â
He turned to the Lord. âBut you did say she was good.â
âShe is,â the Lord replied.
âSheâs gone.â
âSomeplace better.â
âYou smug bastard,â Lambert said. âWhat did you do ?â
âPlease, stop,â Jean Philippe whispered. He put his forehead in his hands. âShe was speaking to me. She said it was time to trust God. I said, âYes, cherie , I will.â Then she smiled, and her eyes closed.â His voice quivered. âDidnât she have the most beautiful smile?â
Mrs. Laghari leaned forward. âDid anyone else see this?â
âAlice,â Jean Philippe said. âThe poor child. I told her Bernadette was sleeping. Just sleeping. Beautiful . . . sleep.â
He broke down. Most of us were crying, too, not just for Bernadette but for ourselves. An invisible shield had been shattered. Death had paid its first visit.
âWhereâs her body?â Lambert said.
I donât know why he asked that. It was obvious.
âThe Lord told me her soul was gone,â Jean Philippe rasped.
âWait. He told you to throw her over the side? Your own wife?â
âStop it, Jason!â Mrs. Laghari barked.
âYou dumped her in the ocean?â
âShut up, Jason!â Yannis snapped.
Lambert sat back, smirking.
âSome God,â he cracked.
*Â *Â *
This evening, when the sun went down, a group of us were sitting outside the canopy. Nightfall brings fear. It also brings us closest together, as if we are huddled against an invader none of us can see. Tonight, with Bernadetteâs absence, we seemed particularly vulnerable. A long time passed without a peep from any of us.
Finally, out of the blue, Yannis began to sing.
Hoist up the John Bâs sails
See how the main sail sets . . .
He stopped and looked around. The rest of us exchanged glances but said nothing. Nina offered a feeble smile. Yannis let it go. His voice is high-pitched and warbly, not something you want to listen to for long anyhow.
But then Nevin shifted to his elbows. He coughed once and said, âIf youâre gonna sing it, lad, sing it correctly.â
He lifted his neck. I could see his protruding Adamâs apple. He cleared his throat and sang.
Hoist up the John Bâs sails
See how the main sail sets . . .
Mrs. Laghari took the next line.
Call for the captain ashore
Let me go home . . .
The rest of us began to mumble along.
Let me go home,
I want to go home,
Well, I feel so broke up, I want to go home
âItâs break up,â Nevin interrupted. âNot broke up.â
âItâs broke up,â Yannis said.
âNot in the original lyrics.â
âHow do you feel so âbreak upâ?â Lambert said.
âBroke!â Mrs. Laghari declared. âNow do it again.â
And we did. Three or four times.
Let me go home, let me go home,
I want to go home, yeah,