students that I had shown Owen Thorskard how to get to English class the first day of school and that this would be the limit of my anecdotal time with him. I wasnât even particularly upset about it. I had plenty of other things to worry about. But something pulled at me. And it meant that every day, three times, when Owen slid into the seat next to mine and smiled, I smiled back at him.
I couldnât for the life of me figure out what it was. I spent three days trying to tease it out on the piano, the notes pulling at me as I scratched them out on the staff paper I preferred to scribble on rather than letting the computer take dictation for me. The piano was all wrong for him, though. It was too big and complicated. There were too many tones at the same time. Owen wasnât shaped in chords. I knew the entire saxophone family was wrong without even picking one up, and the flute was out for sure. All of them were fine for support in the main piece, but the melody belonged to something else, and I couldnât identify it.
âSiobhan?â My music teacherâs voice pulled me out of my speculation. She sounded concerned, and I realized that I wassitting on the floor with staff paper everywhere and half the woodwind section within armâs reach.
âIâll clean it up!â I said. âWhat time is it?â I realized that I was having this conversation backwards, and looked up to make eye contact. âGood morning, Mrs. Heskie.â
Iâd come in early today to play for a bit before classes started. Mum and Dad said they didnât mind when I did it at home, but Mum was on nights at the hospital this week, and I hated to wake up and start playing just as she was going to bed. Mrs. Heskie usually got to school by seven oâclock anyway, so it wasnât a big deal for her to let me use one of the soundproof music rooms.
âYou just missed the five-minute bell,â she said. She was definitely laughing at me.
âShoot,â I said, barely aware Iâd spoken out loud. There was no way I was going to get all this put away before the final bell rang. Iâd be lucky to get to my locker to drop off my coat as it was.
âYou can leave it,â Mrs. Heskie said. âYouâll be back at lunch anyway, and none of my morning classes will need the practice rooms today.â
âThanks,â I said, and grabbed my bag.
âNo running in the halls!â she shouted after me, but I ignored her and made a dash for my locker.
By the time I made it to English, seconds before the bell, I realized that my problem with Owen was that he wasnât a woodwind at all. The woodwinds, single and double reeded, were my default after the piano because they were the easiest for me to play. Iâd been playing the piano pretty much since I was old enough to sit upright on the bench, and when Iâd startedhigh school, I discovered that I took to woodwinds as naturally as if Iâd been playing them all my life. But that wasnât going to be enough, apparently, if I ever wanted to get this song out of my head and onto the paper where it belonged. I was going to have to learn how to play the brass.
AN INVITATION TO DINNER
When I sat down at my desk in algebra, Owen was already waiting for me. His gym teacher mustâve let them hit the showers way earlier than my last gym teacher had.
âWhat are you doing tonight?â he asked, as soon as I was sitting down.
âNothing,â I said. I had what most people would call a boring social life, a classical holdout in a punk rock world.
âDo you want to come over for dinner?â he said. âAunt Hannahâs been asking all month if Iâve made any friends yet.â
âWill they freak out that youâve made friends with a girl?â I asked him.
âWill you freak out that youâre having dinner with Lottie Thorskard?â he fired back.
âFair point,â I said. âSure,