that is?â Cesare persisted mercilessly when she still couldnât make herself form the words. âJust what is the truth that youâ¦â
âThat Iâm pregnant!â Megan cut in when, having drawn a deep, determined breath, she knew there was no going back. âThatâs whatâs happened. I had an affair at collegeâI made a mistake andâand Iâm pregnant as a result,â she finished starkly. âIâm having a baby in seven monthsâ time.â
CHAPTER THREE
âY OUâRE what ?â
If he had felt as if he had been slapped in the face earlier, then this sensation was painfully like being kicked somewhere much more delicateâand intimate. It worked like magic on the ache of his libido however, making it vanish in a trice, leaving him numbed and bewildered, his head spinning wildly.
âWhat did you say?â
He didnât need her to repeat the words; they were already disturbingly clear, etched into his thoughts in letters of fire. But he had to say somethingâ anything at all. He had to keep talkingâthe most inane nonsense if necessaryâjust so he didnât say the things that were buzzing in his mind.
So he didnât sayâwhat the hell did you go and do that for?
And he didnât shout. Though he wanted to. Didnât turn and kick somethingâanything. Though he wanted to. Didnât demand to know why she had given herself to someone else when she was his ! Didnât she know that? Didnât she see that she had no right to be with anyone elseâlet alone sleep with anyone else? But he had spent so longâa lifetime it seemed, pretending with Megan. So somehow he just slipped back into how it had been.
And most of all, worst of all, he had to make sure that he never, ever, admitted to the raging inferno of jealousy that was surging through him. To the pain that was clawing at him, the blinding, black fury at the thought that she hadcared for someone else enough to go to bed with himâto make love with himâto conceive a child with him.
â What did you say?â he repeated when Megan didnât speak, but simply stood, white-faced and huge-eyed, her bottom lip trembling slightly as she faced him.
âYou know what I said! You heard me! I said that Iâm pregnant.â
âAnd how, in the name of God, did that happen?â
Her smile, shaky though it was, was the last thing he had expected. Slightly wobbly and distinctly fraying at the edges, it was touched with a hint of wryness and just the tiniest bit of scepticism.
âOh, Cesare, surely you of all people donât need to ask that! Donât you know about the birds and bees?â
âYes, obviously I do,â he growled, uncomfortably. âBut you know what I mean. What happened?â
âI⦠Do you think you could pass me my T-shirt?â she said, changing the subject abruptly. âIâmâIâd prefer to cover up, if you donât mind.â
If anything revealed the way that things had changed, the dramatic alteration in the atmosphere in the room, the way that the tension seemed to have drained away all the air so that it was impossible to breathe, then it was that simple phraseââIâd prefer to cover up.â That and the way that she barely lifted a finger as she gestured in the direction of the white T-shirt still lying on the floor some feet away, where he had tossed it in the heat of passion.
There couldnât have been a greater contrast with the uninhibited, wildly sexual siren who had delighted him on the settee just minutes before, and this uptight, heavily embarrassed woman who kept her arms firmly crossed over the lush curves of her breasts so as to keep herself hidden from him. She even managed to hook the T-shirt he tossed her on her thumb before determinedly turning her back in orderto pull it on, concealing every sexy inch of herself from his watchful