eyes.
But perhaps it was just as well, Cesare told himself, automatically smoothing down his ruffled hair and fastening the loosened buttons on his shirt with fingers that were not exactly steady. He needed to get himself back under control and think straight. And that was something he would never be fully capable of doing with a half-naked Megan standing in front of him.
So he waited, forcing himself to breathe slow and deep, until she was clothed again before deciding to speak once more.
âSo,â he said when at last, dressed and apparently more composed, she slowly turned to face him. âAre you going to tell me what happened?â
It was like being summoned to the headmasterâs office to try and explain some kind of misdemeanour, Megan reflected, feeling reduced once more to the status of naughty schoolgirl, awaiting her punishment. No, it was worse than that. Cesare was counsel for the prosecution and judge and jury all rolled into one, the sombre, frowning disapproval on his face sending a sensation like the trickle of icy water running down her spine.
âYou know what happened! You donât need me to tell you! I met this guy at a partyâGary. Iâfound him attractive and he made it plain he liked me. We started dating. One night our kisses led to more and moreâas these things doâ¦â
âAs they do,â Cesare echoed in a voice that made her blood run cold. âAnd so you ended up in bed together.â
âDo you have to make it sound so sordid!â
âIt wasnât like that?â
The cynical lift of one jet-black brow almost destroyed her but she forced herself to ignore it and rushed on.
âNo, it wasnât! It was nothing like that!â
âAh, I seeâ¦â
Pushing his hands deep into his trouser pockets, Cesare leaned back against the velvet cushions and looked up at her through narrowed eyes. His coldly assessing stare was cruel as a laser, seeming to cut right through to her soul and lay it bare.
âYou were madly in love with him?â His scepticism scraped over her skin, stripping away one protective layer.
âYes! Yes I was!â
It was too vehement, too revealing. Especially to someone who knew her as well as Cesare did. Surely he would be able to guess that she was protesting too much. That she was hiding behind a smokescreen of emotion?
She had thought she was in love with Gary. For a time she had truly believed it to be the case. But then circumstances had changed, forcing her to reconsider. And if she hadnât already been doubting her own conviction, then her reaction to Cesare just now would have rubbed her nose forcibly in the uncomfortable truth.
âBut he wasnât in love with you?â
Meganâs bright head came up sharply, big green eyes becoming even bigger and darker.
âWhy do you say that? How do you know?â
His indifferent shrug dismissed her question as the irrelevant inanity it was.
âIf he cared anything about you, he would be here nowâwith you. He wouldnât leave you to come homeâface the music by yourself. I take it that was the reason for your tears?âMegan!â he warned when she looked away, out of the window, down at the floor. Anything other than look him straight in the eye. âHe didnât come with you, did he?â
âNo.â
It was just a whisper, the barest thread of sound, and shedrew invisible patterns on the floor with the toe of one bare foot, watching the process with an intensity that was totally unconvincing.
âNo, heâs not here. In fact he wonât be coming at all. Not ever.â
âNot even when the babyâ¦?â
âNo.â
She shook her head again, her expression that of a forlorn child.
âHe wonât come for me, or for the baby. He doesnât want either of us. He never did. Not really. He was just having a bit of funâplaying around. As a matter of factâ¦â
She