week before. Tiny was pretty sure it had been about sex, but it was hard to tell. Sheâd used a lot of fruit metaphors, and on top of that, Tiny had never had sex, so she had nothing to compare it to.
Josh was scribbling something in a black moleskin notebook. He didnât look up when he said, âI dunno. I like it. It feels emotionally authentic.â
âWell, should we vote on it?â Malin didnât so much suggest as command. Malin was in top form, presiding over the committee as she perched cross-legged on the table. She wore denim cut-off shorts over bee-yellow tights, black Converse high-tops, and a large, white, menâs undershirt cinched at the waist with a black belt. Her multitonal hair (Tiny counted four but was sure there were more: auburn, honey, gold, strawberry-blond . . .) dangled defiantly in her face, perfectly contrasting with her dark brown skin.
There was a flourish of pencils, pens, and people ripping the corners off notebook pages. The results were never announced at the meetingâthat would have been too humane. You had to wait agonizingly until the issue came out at the end of the year to see if your piece was accepted.
Malin collected the shreds of paper, marking cryptically in her notebook one tally mark for each vote. When all the votes were in, she looked up and smiled grimly.
âNext,â she said . . .
Josh didnât look at Tiny once.
Maybe he knew , maybe he could just tell , because they shared some mind connection he hadnât even realized yet. If Tiny wished it hard enough, maybe she could make him notice her in the way she wanted to be noticed.
Itâs just that no one noticed her, not really. Not since that night three years ago.
There wasnât anything worth noticing, anyway.
Lu
The black lacquered door to Willâs brownstone loomed before them like the gateway to Danteâs Inferno. His family owned all three floors, and the whole school probably could have fit in there if theyâd been stalking him on Facebook and knew about the party too. Or maybe they did. Lu had no idea how these things worked, and she didnât care.
âAre you sure we should be here?â Tinyâs voice came out of the dark beside Lu. For a minute sheâd forgotten Tiny was there.
âOf course,â Lu said. She threw her shoulders back. Before Tiny could stop her, Lu reached over and readjusted the crop top, where Tiny had been tugging it down. âLook, itâll be fineâitâs a party. Everyone will be drunk. You can talk to Josh.â
âIâm not making any promises about that, by the wayââ
âYes, you areââ
âItâs a fact-finding mission.â
âNo, itâs not.â
Lu didnât understand people like Tiny, who wanted things to be different but refused to do anything about them. Lu was a doer. Sometimes she was impulsive and did things without thinking, but at least she did them at all. She didnât settle for the status quo. She changed things. She got her way.
âDo you think anyone will even be here? Maybe everyoneâs stayed home to study.â
âOh, seriously, fuck the SATs! I am so sick of that being all anyone can talk about!â
Lu had a mouth like a trucker. She cursed inappropriately all the time.
Lu, realizing she didnât have enough change for a soda from the vending machine: âFuck!â
Lu, knocking over a canister of pens in the fifth-floor quiet study lounge: âFuck!â
Lu, banging her funny bone on a bus full of old ladies: âFucking shit!â
âLu,â Tiny said quietly. âAre you okay?â
âFine,â Lu snapped. âIâm fine.â She hadnât told Tiny about Owen. There wasnât anything to tell. âSorry.â Lu sighed. âLook,â she said, leaning against the front door and absently fiddling with the leaves on one of the cone-shaped shrubs. âIâm
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