ready to buy somewhere now, I can help you.â
âWhat do you mean?â
âWith a deposit. Iâve set something aside for you. So if youâre ready to buy somewhere, then letâs have a chat about it.â
âWow.â I laugh, taking it in. âThanks, Dad.â
Ben looks as shocked as I do â but when our eyes meet he gives me a grin.
I look at Stefan, wondering if he knew about Dadâs secret fund. âHe did the same for me when I bought my flat,â he says. âSo donât go thinking youâre the favourite or anything.â
âI wouldnât be too sure about that, son,â says Dad, getting to his feet and patting Stefanâs shoulder playfully. âNow if youâll all excuse me, I need to set the table for our delicious Italian feast.â
As a family, we always eat at a table. Admittedly, we ate out half the time when I was growing up, but even at home, it was always at the table. No telly, no phones, no computer games. Music was OK as long as it was quiet enough to chat, because Dad always insisted meal times were family times.
Itâs a habit I never got out of until I met Ben. The first time he cooked me dinner at his he carried the shepherdâs pie through, and I followed excitedly holding the crockery.
âFor the love of God, what are you doing?â I asked, watching in horror as he placed the pie on top of a magazine on the coffee table.
âThought we could sit on the couch and eat,â he said, looking perplexed as he watched me set two places at the dinner table. âWatch a film or something?â
So we did. And after we finished eating, Ben pulled my legs on to his lap while we watched the rest of the film. We ended up falling asleep, me snuggled into his shoulder.
Then that became the norm, though I would never suggest it when coming to my dadâs.
The feast, when we eventually sit down to eat it, is far from delicious. It is, at best, edible. We all know it. Dad doesnât pretend to be a good cook â he just isnât a believer in not doing something just because youâre a bit crap at it.
âThat was really nice,â says Ben, soaking up the final spot of tomato sauce on his plate with burnt garlic bread and swallowing it, before sitting back and patting his tummy.
âIt was?â asks Dad.
I feel the corners of my mouth twitch.
âAbsolutely.â
Stefan picks up his napkin and wipes his mouth, and I can tell once again heâs trying not to laugh.
âWould you like more?â I ask Ben sweetly. I pick up the pot without waiting for an answer and serve a huge dollop on to his plate. âThere you go.â
âLovely. Ta.â
He gives Dad a smile.
âYou are welcome,â I say.
He manages to finish his second portion and Iâm still struggling not to smile when Ben says: âOh my God â whoâs that?â
âThatâs Alice,â says Dad, following Benâs gaze to the photo on the fireplace as he tops up our wine, not seeming to notice Iâve barely touched mine. âTheir mum.â
âGod, she looks like you, Rebecca.â Ben stands and goes to pick it up, looking perplexed. I avert my eyes, but the image in the frame is imprinted in my mind. My mum is gardening. Her fair hair is piled on top of her head in a messy bun, and even though sheâs crouching, you can see how petite she is. Her dungarees hang loosely from her shoulders, rolled up at the bottom above her tiny, bare feet. I take after my dad in every way, except . . . âItâs the eyes! Those are your eyes. Thatâs incredible.â
I try to turn my attention away, and think about something else. I take a sip of my wine but all it does is make me realize how dry my mouth has become, and it hurts to swallow.
âIâm just nipping to the loo,â I announce, turning quickly but catching the confusion on Benâs face.
Picking up my