Granny lived here, but now her bookcases are filled with design books and autobiographies rather than spy novels and old issues of
Readerâs Digest
.
âWho plays?â asks Ben, gesturing at the piano.
âRebecca,â says Stefan.
Benâs eyes widen as he looks at me. âWhy donât I know this?â
âCanât you tell sheâs got penis fingers?â says Stefan.
âPianist fingers!â I yell.
âThatâs what I said.â
âAnyway,â I say to Ben, hitting Stefan with a cushion, âI donât play. I took a few lessons when I was young, when we were back staying with Granny. I gave up, though.â
âToo impatient,â clarifies Stefan.
âNot true,â I lie.
Dad leans back in his chair and crosses his legs. âShe thought sheâd come away from her first lesson being able to give a full rendition of Beethovenâs Fifth Symphony.â
âWell, who wants to spend an hour doing scales?â I complain.
âSee?â says Stefan.
âA few weeks ago she asked me to show her how to do a perfect boiled egg,â Ben says, leaning conspiratorially towards the others. âThen she tried it herself once, and it was only half cooked when she opened it, so she bashed it to death with her spoon and poured herself a bowl of cereal. She hasnât tried it again since.â
Dad and Stefan burst out laughing and I glare at Ben with faux hurt, though Iâm happy to see the three of them being so pally.
Benâs eyes lock with mine, and even after eleven months, the intimacy of his look still has the same effect it did on that night at Arch 13. Itâs an effort to tear my eyes away.
I donât know why I was worried earlier. Everyone loves Ben and everyone loves my dad. The two of them not getting on would be like Phillip Schofield and Dame Judi Dench meeting and deciding theyâre not really each otherâs cup of tea.
âCan you still play anything?â asks Ben.
I shake my head as Stefan grabs my hand and drags me up. âLetâs do a duet,â he says.
âWe donât know anyââ
âYes, we do. We nailed it â donât pretend youâve forgotten.â
Reluctantly I sit next to Stefan on the stool.
âItâs that crap one everyone knows,â I announce over my shoulder to Ben. âIt was in the film
Big
.â
I start the lower notes and wait for Stefan to come in with the melody.
He gets it right for about five seconds before he starts hitting the wrong keys. He doesnât stop, though; he just carries on as if heâs doing it right.
âStop going off-piste,â I yell at him.
âIâm here and Iâm perfectly sober,â he says.
âKnob.â
âSshhh, and concentrate, before you ruin our recital.â
âThe piano originally belonged to Alice, my wife,â Dad tells Ben as they both chuckle.
âOh, Dad, I forgot to tell you.â I stop playing and spin around, before the conversation goes down that road. âDanielle is moving out.â
I fill him in on the details.
âSo whatâs next for you?â he asks.
My eyes find Ben and I see him look down into his mug. Itâs painful to admit â and I wonât out loud â but I was so sure Ben would instantly suggest moving in when I told him about Danielle. Thatâs what he does, he jumps right in. It never occurred to me that he wouldnât ask.
Worried heâll think Iâm trying to coerce him now, I inject some enthusiasm into my answer.
âItâd be weird living there with anyone else. I guess Iâll just rent by myself until I can afford to buy somewhere. Itâll be nice to have my own space.â There you go, Ben â off the hook. âIt might have to be a studio flat, or somewhere further afield where the rent isnât so high. Charlton, maybe.â
âYou know,â says Dad, âif you feel