The JOKE

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Book: Read The JOKE for Free Online
Authors: Milan Kundera
Tags: Fiction, General
and it was not merely because I loved her but because she was the only woman on my horizon and the state of boy without girl was intolerable. But Marketa never answered.
    I couldn't understand what had happened. I arrived back in Prague in August and managed to catch her at home. We took our usual walk along the Vltava and over to Imperial Meadow (that melancholy island of poplars and deserted playgrounds), and Marketa claimed that nothing had changed between us; she behaved, in fact, as she had before, but precisely that rigidly unwavering sameness of everything (sameness of kiss, sameness of conversation, sameness of smile) depressed me. When I asked if I could see her the next day, she told me to phone and we would set a time.
    I did phone; an unfamiliar woman's voice informed me that Marketa had left Prague.
    I was unhappy as only a womanless twenty-year-old can be, a rather shy young man who has known few encounters with physical love, few and fleeting and gauche, and who is constantly preoccupied with it. The days were unbearably long and futile; I was unable to read, I was unable to work, I went to three different films a day, one showing after another, just to kill time, to drown out the screech of the hoot owl issuing from deep inside me. I, whom Marketa regarded (thanks to my own laborious attempts to show off) as a man almost totally blase about women, could not get up the courage to talk to girls walking along the street, girls whose beautiful legs made my heart ache.
    And so I was very glad when September came at last, bringing classes and (several days before classes began) my work at the Students Union, where I had an office to myself and all kinds of things to keep me busy. The day after I got back, however, I received a phone call summoning me to the District Party Secretariat. From that moment I remember everything in perfect detail. It was a sunny day, and as I came out of the Students Union building I felt the grief that had plagued me all summer slowly dissipating. I set off with an agreeable feeling of curiosity. I rang the bell and was let in by the chairman of the Party University Committee, a tall thin-faced youth with fair hair and ice-blue eyes. I gave him the standard greeting, "Honor to Labor," but instead of responding he said, "Go straight back. They're waiting for you." In the last room of the Secretariat, three members of the committee awaited me. They told me to sit down. I did, and understood that this was out of the ordinary. These three Comrades, whom I knew well and had always bantered with, wore severe expressions.
    Their first question was whether I knew Marketa. I said I did. They asked me whether I had corresponded with her. I said I had. They asked me whether I remembered what I wrote. I said I did not, but immediately the postcard with the provocative text materialized before my eyes and I began to have an inkling of what was going on. Can't you recall anything? they asked. No, I said. Well, then, what did Marketa write to you? I shrugged my shoulders to give the impression that she had written about intimate matters I couldn't possibly discuss in public. Didn't she write anything about the training course?
    they asked. Yes, I said. What did she say? That she liked it there, I answered. And? That the talks were good, I answered, and the group spirit. Did she mention that a healthy atmosphere prevailed? Yes, I said, I think she did say something like that. Did she mention that she was discovering the power of optimism? Yes, I said. And you, what do you think of
    optimism? they asked. Optimism? I asked. What should I think of it? Do you consider yourself an optimist? they went on. I do, I said timidly. I like a good time, a good laugh, I said, trying to lighten the tone of the interrogation. Even a nihilist can like a good laugh, said one of them. He can laugh at people who suffer. A cynic also can like a good laugh, he went on. Do you think socialism can be built without optimism?

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