his rescue, began to explain why it was that without Duplessis, âtheyâdâve never got electricity in the stables.â
I left the group of men. Just what was Pierrette going to lose? I was far more obsessed by this question than by the future of Quebec or the politics of Duplessis. It prevented me from sleeping.
In the schoolyard the next day, I approached the territory reserved by the big boys for playing ball. A few minutes later, Pierrette appeared. The big boys broke off their game as though the ball had become a heavy stone. Their eyes followed Pierrette as though she were the Pope. It was time to take action.
âWatch out, Pierrette,â I shouted, âyouâre gonna lose them.â
Pierrette fled, taking refuge in the school. One of the big boys picked up the ball and said to me majestically:
âDonât get in a sweat, kid, they wonât fall off, theyâre fastened on good and solid. I checked myself.â
The ball began to fly from one boy to the other, joyously, amid bursts of laughter. I decided then to laugh louder than all the big boys. But I still didnât know what it was that Pierrette was going to lose, and what was so firmly fastened on.
For days my glance followed Pierrette; I invented all sorts of tricks to uncover her secret. I spied on her from behind an open book, I brought a little mirror that I used so I could see behind me, I hid under the stairs Pierrette would walk down. But Pierrette still looked as she always did, timid, plump, blushing and the biggest girl in our class. The big boys could have explained to me but I didnât dare display my ignorance, I was so afraid of their mockery.
One morning, to celebrate a religious holiday, our whole class was taken to the church. All in a row, by order of height, we went to take Communion. But scarcely had we returned to school when the nun curtly ordered Pierrette to stand up. Blushing, Pierrette obeyed.
âInstead of displaying such languorous, sensual postures in front of the men in our parish,â the indignant nun roared, âyouâd be better off praying to God, Pierrette, to chase the evil thoughts from your possessed body. When a person has such provocative bumps on her body itâs because the Devilâs within you.â
Pierretteâs face became even redder, then it suddenly turned white; she swayed and crumpled to the floor.
âYou see,â said the nun, âthe Devil is leaving her body.â
When I approached Pierrette, who had fallen to the yellow floor when she fainted, I didnât see the Devil but Inoticed what Iâd never noticed before: Pierretteâs chest was puffed out just like a real womanâs. But why couldnât the big boys go on playing ball when they saw her?
I hesitated for a long time before confiding in my friend Lapin.
âPierrette fainted today because the Devil put bumps on her body. Two big bumps, right here!â
âCome on!â said Lapin, âit wasnât the Devil that did that.â
My friend Lapin was doubly superior to me: he was older and his father worked in the office of Duplessisâ government in Quebec. I understood what his profession was when, after school, behind the big rock we used as a secret hiding place, my friend Lapin opened a paper bag as I watched him.
âThis comes from my fatherâs office.â
He took out a dozen magazines that had nothing but photographs of girls on every page, girls with no clothes on; and all of them were possessed by the Devil because they had bumps! Bigger bumps than Pierrette. The magazines burned my hands like fire, but I was hungry to learn! I wanted to know! On every page I turned I could feel the sea of ignorance retreating. At every picture my body ceased to be that of a child and I became a man.
âThese magazines come from the United States,â said Lapin.
âIâd like that, to live in the United States,â I said, slowly