donât need to pound in a nail. Sometimes you need to stitch a delicate thread.â
Elizabeth nodded, considering this. Had she been trying too hard, with Nat? Was something gentler and trickier the better choice?
âSpend some time reviewing your memories,â Widow Porter continued. âThe painful and the glad. Keep all of them near youâlearn from what youâve done, from where youâve been. When you can call the precise memory for a spell, one with exactly the right strength and flavor, thatâs when your magic will sharpen.â
That evening, as she went home for dinner, she contrived to walk out of the Porter home just as Nat was walking in. She managed this most nights they worked together; this was the whole reason she came to practice with Widow Porter. (The added lessons in witchcraft were just a bonus.) âWhy, Elizabeth,â he said, smiling down at her. âHere again? Youâre good to help Ma around the house so much.â
âI donât mind a bit,â Elizabeth promised. See how good I am? How thoughtful I am? See how easily I could live here with you?
Sheâd borrowed beauty again todayâshe did it most days, now. It was worth the trouble to see the way Natâs gaze warmed to the sight of her. Something about his smile changed. Elizabeth couldnât name it, but she knew that this was the first time Nat had ever looked at her the way she really wanted him to. Though the spark only lasted a moment, that moment felt as though it could be a beginning.
âIâve meant to speak with your aunt,â Widow Porter said. âIâll walk home with you and drop in, if you think sheâd welcome the company.â
âAunt Ruth is always glad to see you.â This was stretching the truth a bit; her aunt sometimes complained that Widow Porter was too bossy. But she wouldnât object to a brief visit.
âWell. Good night, Elizabeth,â Nat said.
âGood night,â she repeated softly.
As they walked away from the house, Widow Porter said, âThereâs something I see I need to talk to you about.â
âYes, maâam?â Elizabethâs heart pounded.
âMy boy has grown into a handsome young man.â The widowâs voice was softer than Elizabeth had ever heard it. âHeâd turn nearly any girlâs head. I know because heâs the spitting image of his father, who turned my head fast enough when I was your age.â She chuckled softly.
âHe is, maâam.â Surely it was safe to agree with her, especially about something so obviously true.
âYouâre a fine witch, as dedicated to the Craft as any other Iâve ever known. Thatâs why I donât want to see you lose your way.â
She knew. She knew about the black magic. How? There were spells of detection, but Elizabeth had thought sheâd know if the Widow Porter were suspicious enough to cast one. Had she been wrong?
But Widow Porter wasnât looking at Elizabeth with the cold anger sheâd directed at Catherine Crews. In her eyes was something a thousand times worse: pity.
âWhen youâre a girl, itâs easy to let your heart run away with you,â Widow Porter said gently. âThatâs why I wanted to speak now, before you found yourself hurting.â
She thinks itâs passing affection. She has no idea Iâve been in love with him all my life and I have no intention of giving up on himâ
âThe First Laws are not ours to question, Elizabeth,â Widow Porter said. âThey can never be disobeyed, ever. You saw that when you saw what became of Goodwife Crews. Of course youâre too sensible a girl to ever get yourself in such trouble, but I wanted to say a word of warning. To spare you the pain.â
âOf course,â Elizabeth said. They were the only words she could get out of her mouth. It would sound as though she were agreeing with Widow