it took almost an hour to skin the animal and empty it of its blood, meanwhile Caro prepared the fire with some plants and tree branches that he found half a mile away from the lake.
The driver came to me and told me something was wrong, that the road was a bit strange, and mainly that he drove many miles but never saw the amount of gas lowering.
“It must be the saint's doing,” he said.
“What?”
“Saint Cash.”
The lamb didn't taste very good, but in the end a woman took out a cake, it's for my daughter's birthday, but we won't make it, so we might as well eat it together. I didn't understand why she said she wasn't going to make it, were we doomed?
Back on the bus, there was another line to go to the can. Many came to see me, all the front people. They sat next to me, one after another, and I don't remember anymore who was who and who told what. This one was a woman, I think she was called Olvido. Yes, that must be it, do you have an Olvido on the list? Could she still be alive? She told me that she had cancer and that she was going to die.
“The doctors told me that I haven't got much time left, months, but months could mean many things. Two months? Ten months? Doctors only know how to say a few months, nothing else, and you stay with those months, it's your life, not mere statistics. I have decided to go to the sea, my sea, to die, the sea where I was born, my sea, you understand, I tried everything, vitamins, exercise, psychology, radiotherapy, chemotherapy, a new experimental vaccine. I went to the Mayo Clinic, you know, for this my brothers had money, to be healthy, but never before, to help me out or to buy a car, not even a used car, but when I got sick, ten years ago, my God, I got sick ten years ago, then they became good, very good, super-duper good brothers. They began calling me every day, checked if I needed anything, they set an appointment with the best specialist in Madrid, I didn't want the best specialist, but I couldn't say no, then at the Mayo Clinic in the US. Do you see what I was in? I found myself in the same situation of dependency. Before, it was because they didn't give me their money and after it was because they did. When I told them I wanted money to go to a natural medicine clinic in the UK, they said no, they didn't understand, but I went anyway, you know. I sold what little I had, an inherited land from a great-aunt and I went. They got very angry. Of course when they help you, one wonders if they are helping you or helping themselves, or if they want to have a clear conscience, but now you see, now I am going to the sea ... it's my turn.”
So now I wonder if that Olvido or whatever her name was survived, ironically the one who was going to die, things like that happen sometimes. What you least expect. Well, I see that in here I'm going to be talking alone and nobody is going to respond to anything.
I don't even know if you're listening, maybe you've fallen asleep, or there's just one of you, or you're recording this and then you'll listen to only parts of what I say.
“Yes, we are listening, although you are boring us.”
“Sorry.”
“We want to know what happened, not the digestive problems of each passenger.”
“But can you tell me who you are, are you the police, secret agents?”
“We want to know who the leader was.”
“I don't know that I don't know if there was a leader.”
“Who gave the order?”
“What order?”
“If you were or weren't abducted.”
“I believe I am in a democratic country, and I'm entitled to a lawyer.”
“Not in this case.”
“Why not...”
“Sometimes it’s like that.”
“It's not like I have anything to hide. I can tell you everything I remember, but...”
“We want to know when they started to eat passengers.”
“What?”
“To eat human flesh.”
“I don't remember that. I didn't eat the flesh of any passenger.”
“Of a back person, perhaps...”
“Not me.”
“Alright, go on, go
Michele Boldrin;David K. Levine