Harry checked up, Madge had said brightly, âWeâre just in the middle of a rubber â Peggyâll call you back.â Harry knew what she was doing and it wasnât playing cards. And Peggy knew that he saw through the lie. She went pink.
âWhy didnât you say anything? Whereâre you going?â
The paper was folded and put down.
âTo Suffolk,â Harry answered. âIâve heard of a job.â
Now the pink had turned to an angry red.
âSuffolk? What sort of a job? Why do you never tell me anything? Iâm not moving to bloody Suffolk.â
âI havenât asked you to,â he remarked. âDonât start shouting, Peggy. My cousin Liz told me about it. It sounded rather interesting.â
Cousin Liz; she bristled, remembering the snobbish cow in the big house whoâd looked down her nose at her when they were introduced. His family had made her feel small, she thought bitterly, measuring her up against the first wife, putting their noses in the air.
âWell, thatâs nice for you,â she said. âNever mind about me. What sort of a job?â
She was on the defensive, hating to ask, but the money was important ⦠the pension was a joke and she didnât even know how much redundancy heâd got.
âCatering,â he answered. âThereâs a job in a local hotel. Iâm going up to see it and stay with Liz and Peter. I knew you wouldnât want to come.â
âStay with your stuck-up bloody relatives? No thank you! What do you know about hotels? It sounds a waste of time. If you want to go on a jaunt, why donât you say so? Catering!â she sneered, reaching for the coffee pot.
âIf I take it,â he ignored the jibe, âit wouldnât suit you to move, would it?â
She snapped back, âNo, too right it wouldnât,â and then felt heâd tricked her into saying it. âWhy donât you look for something round here? Go down to the Job Centre, do something instead of sitting round all day? Oh God, Suffolk, I ask you!â
She pushed her chair back. She didnât want the coffee, she didnât want to sit there trying to pierce the armour-plating. She couldnât rile him, or hurt him.
She stood by the table and said suddenly, âWhy did you marry me?â
He was looking at her and he shook his head. âI honestly donât know. Look, Iâm going in about ten minutes. Nothing may come of it, so donât work yourself up. Iâll let you know when Iâm coming back. I donât want to muck up your social engagements.â
He left the kitchen.
âYou shit,â she said under her breath and started stacking the dirty breakfast china. Her eyes had filled with tears. Iâll ring Dave the minute heâs gone, she told herself. Weâll go out somewhere and have a meal and come back here ⦠âThe shit,â she whispered again, and wiped her eyes.
He packed lightly; how often heâd chucked a few things in a bag and flown off, or gone with nothing but what was on his back ⦠under the wire, over the Wall ⦠now he was making the trip for himself. He left the house without seeing his wife. Sheâd be on the phone to the lover before he was halfway down the road. It was a lovely day and he whistled as he drove to Heathrow. It was going to work out. He was confident, excited. Jan had called him the day before. It was all set. Geneva was the meeting place. He had booked on the eleven oâclock flight. For a moment his thoughts turned to the sordid squabble in the kitchen. Sheâd fallen into the trap so easily. She wouldnât move to Suffolk. Sheâd said so, and thereâd be no change of mind when he put the terms in front of her. He would be generous. She could have the house and the rest of his savings. He didnât feel mean towards her, just a huge, wearying indifference, with the faintest tinge of