didnât much care, to tell the truth. I didnât want her money. But she seemed quite upset. She went on: âHowever, the top bookie price, on any horse that wins, is twenty to one. At that I owe you forty dollars win money, twenty-two dollars place, and fourteen dollars show, plus of course the six that you bet. Thatâs eighty-two in all. Mr. Kearny, Iâll pay you tomorrow. I came away before the last race was run, and I just now got the results when I called in. Iâm sorry, but I donât have the money with me, and youâll have to wait.â
âRuth, I told you from the first, my weakness isnât horses. Itâs you. If six bucks a night is the ante, okay, thatâs how it is, and dirt cheap. But if youâll act as a girl ought to act, quit holding out on me, what your name is and how I get in touch, Iâll quit giving an imitation of a third-rate gambler, and weâll both quit worrying whether you pay me or not. Weâll start over, andââ
âWhat do you mean, act as a girl ought to act?â
âI mean go out with me.â
âOn this job how can i?â
âSomebody making you hold it?â
âThey might be, at that.â
âWith a gun to your head, maybe?â
âThey got âem, donât worry.â
âThereâs only one thing wrong with that. Some other girl and a gun, that might be her reason. But not you. You donât say yes to a gun, or to anybody giving you orders, or trying to. If you did, I wouldnât be here.â
She sat looking down in her lap, and then, in a very low voice: âI donât say I was forced. I do say, when youâre young you can be a fool. Then people can do things to you. And you might try to get back, for spite. Once you start that, youâll be in too deep to pull out.â
âOh, you could pill out, if you tried.â
âHow, for instance?â
âMarrying me is one way.â
âMe, a pay-off girl for a gang of bookies, marry Miles Kearny, a guy with a crown on his ring and a father that owns a big business and a motherâwhoâs your mother, by the way?â
âMy motherâs dead.â
âIâm sorry.â
We had dead air for a while, and she said: âMr. Kearny, men like you donât marry girls like me, at least to live wit them and like it. Maybe a wife can have cross eyes or buck teeth; but she canât have a past.â
âRuth, I told you, my first night here, Iâm from California, where weâve got present and future. There isnât any past. Too many of their grand-mothers did what you do, they worked for gambling houses. They dealt so much faro and rolled so many dice and spun so many roulette wheels, in Sacramento and Virginia City and San Francisco, they donât talk about the past. You go tot admit they made a good state though, those old ladies and their children. They made the best there is, and thatâ where Iâd be taking you, and thatâs why weâd be happy.â
âItâs out.â
âAre you married, Ruth?â
âNo, but itâs out.â
âWhy is it?â
âIâll pay you tomorrow night.â
Next night the place was full, because a lot of them had bet a favorite that came in and they were celebrating their luck. When sheâd paid them off she motioned and I went over. She picked up eight tens and two ones and handed them to me, and to get away from the argument I took the bills and put them in my wallet. Then I tried to start where weâd left off the night before, but she held out her hand and said: âMr. Kearny, itâs been wonderful knowing you, especially knowing someone who always takes off his hat. Iâve wanted to tell you that. But donât come any more. I wonât see you any more, or accept bets, or anything. Goodbye, and good luck.â
âIâm not letting you go.â
âArenât you