Iâm not going to pull teeth. Youâre my husband, Iâm your wife. You need to open up and tell me whatâs really on your heart.â
âAnd how would I do that?â he said curtly. âOkay, here goesâI feel like somebody has just kicked me in the gut. I feel like somebody has taken a butcher knife and stuck it into my heart. Thatâs how I feel. Thatâs where Iâm at. Soâwhat good is it going to do to lay all that out in front of you? Letâs just leave it alone.â
âItâs called marriage,â she said with passion and a little catch in her voice. âIâm justâ¦stupefied.â
âAbout what?â
âThat youâan attorney whose profession requires him to argue the fine points of the law, a lawyer who has vindicated the downtrodden and has righted the injustices in cases around the nation, a man who has escaped death several times, a man who is apparently fearless about everythingâhas neither the desire, nor the courage, to look his wife in the face and tell her the truth about how he is really feeling about this news from the police.â
Will pushed himself back from the table with a wry chuckle.
âYou know, weâve got this mixed upâ¦youâre the one who ought to be the trial lawyer.â
âPlease donât patronize me.â Fiona continued to probe. âI want to really hear whatâs going on in your heart.â
âYou sure about that?â he asked with some hesitation.
âIâm absolutely sure, darling.â She laid her hand on his.
âOkayâhow about this? I feel like Iâm living in two dimensions. A parallel universe. Iâm here in this house with you. I love you madly. But it was here, on top of this very hill, in that one-hundred-and-fifty-year-old mansion Audra and I were fixing up, where we were loving and trying to make a life for ourselves. Yes, she did leave me. But I was convincedâmaybe Iâm still convincedâthat if the murder wouldnât have happened, she would have come back and we would have patched things up and stayed together. So I guess what Iâm saying isâ¦if it makes any senseâ¦I feel like Iâm living out multiple personalitiesâlike Iâm walking through a house of mirrors in some twisted carnival.â
His wife was silent and cocked her head. And then she spoke.
âWillâ¦I love you. But you need to listen to me on this. No matter how large this big log house is, itâs not big enough for the three of us. Audra doesnât fit in this houseâor our lives. Youâre married to me . Whatever you need to do to come to grips with thatâ¦youâre goingto have to do it. I will not share my house, or my marriage, or my bed with some phantom.â
Fiona stood up and turned to walk away, but then she looked back.
âJust let me know when you choose our life together as the life you want to live.â
7
C OLONEL C ALEB M ARLOWEâS VOICE at the other end of the telephone was direct and unemotional.
âMr. Chambers, where do we standâabout your representing me?â
âWell, Colonel Marlowe, I may need time to think about it. Iâm not really clear on why you called me. These are military charges, under the court-martial jurisdiction of the military.â
âYes, thatâs correct. Mr. Chambers, how many military cases have you handled before?â
âWell, Colonel, just one,â Will replied.
âAnd what was that case about?â
âIt was a long time ago. I represented a naval officer in San Diego. I think the charges were âconduct injurious to the good order of the militaryââsomething like that.â
âWhy was he charged?â
âBecause he had made some statements critical of the military.â
âHow did the case end up?â
âWell, we won. Beginnerâs luck, I guess.â
âHow did you get the