is enough.â
Lottie switched off the phone. The result of doing something so positive, so rude, still gave her a sense of shock. It was Milo who had advised her to do it having listened to so many phone calls descending into arguments and protests and irritation.
âItâs the only way to deal with Sara,â heâd said. âSheâll always have the last word and leave you feeling thoroughly miserable. Try it!â
He was right; it worked remarkably well, and Sara never commented on it, but it still left Lottie feeling equivocal.
Matt came in. He stood for a moment, eyebrows raised, and she smiled ruefully at him.
âSara,â she said. âBad news, actually. She says that Nick and Alice are having a few marital problems.â
âIâm sorry to hear that. Did she say why?â
âNo, not really. It was just to warn us in case Nick phoned. Have you seen anything of them lately?â
âNot very lately. They enjoy the occasional literary party, and they just adored the film premiere, of course, and I get invited to dinner now and then. Theyâre always so busy, both working so hard, and the children have amazing social lives given that theyâre barely out of nursery school.â
âPerhaps itâs just the pressure of work and it will all blow over. A funny five minutes in a marriage, as Miloâs mother used to say. What have you got there?â
He was holding a large brown envelope, folded in half, and now he stepped forward and put a photograph on the table between them.
âFirst of all, I thought you might like to see this one.â He pushed the photograph towards her and she picked it up.
Her own face smiled back at her, Tom beside her, laughing. He had his arm casually about her shoulder and their eyes were screwed up against the sun.
âOh,â she said. âOh,â and then pulled herself together. Matt was watching her, half smiling, as if he understood. But how could he? âI remember this,â she said, making a great effort. âWeâd made an offer for his book and Iâd taken him out to lunch to discuss it. It was so exciting. We were such a tiny publishing house, mostly academic stuff; a few poets. Tom was a very successful journalist and I was so thrilled to meet him and to be publishing Leopoldville . He persuaded me to go back with him to meet Helen. It was just after youâd all come back from Afghanistan in the seventies and she was rather down. Post-natal depression after Imogenâs birth. He hoped that the publication of the book would cheer her up.â
âAnd did it?â
Lottie hesitated. âNot really. Not in the long term. Though we had a lovely afternoon together. It was Helen that took the photograph.â
âI wondered if youâd like it. Unless youâve got a copy?â
âNo.â She still held it, studying it. She could recall the heat of the sun on her head, the scent of lilac in the garden â and the light pressure of Tomâs arm across her shoulder. Someone in a nearby house had been playing the piano: Chopinâs sonata in B minor, the phrases drifting from the open window. Always, since that afternoon, it had reminded her of Tom.
Remembering, Lottieâs heart contracted with pain. âIâd like it very much. Thanks, Matt.â
âIt was in Mumâs rosewood box. And then there are these.â He tipped out the contents of the packet and the photographs
slid fanwise on to the table. She bent over them. âDo you see anything odd?â
She shuffled through them; hazarded a guess. âAll of you? None of Im?â
âItâs strange, isnât it?â He picked one up. âItâs more than that, though.â He frowned. âI know it sounds weird but I canât quite relate to them, if you see what I mean.â
She picked another one up. âHow dâyou mean?â
He shook his head as if dismissing some