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arms.
    “Whoa, what’s wrong, Kat”? He asked.
    I held him tighter, just wanting him to shut up.
    “Come on, Kat. Talk to me”
    “Can we just go upstairs?” I finally asked.
    “Sure,” he almost whispered.
    He let me lay on his bed with him, just holding me while we sat in silence. I rubbed my body against his in a manner that I knew would arouse him. I could feel his body growing stiff beneath his pants. His breath came quickly in my ear as I placed his right hand on my breast. When I turned to face him, his lips found mine and I felt a sense of relief that he was going along with this. I pushed him onto his back and wordlessly took him out of his pants. He was throbbing with wanting when I touched him, and as I started to move my hand in a stoking motion, I heard a small moan escape him.
    “Let me touch you, Kat,” he said
    I smiled and pushed his hand away, continuing what I was doing.
    “If you keep doing that you’ll make me cum.”
    “That would be the point,” I explained
    His breath came heavier now, “god, just let me fuck you.”
    I moved faster now, setting a pattern in which I knew satisfied him. I bent over his cock. His eyes met mine as I put my lips to it. The noise which came out of him was one I had never heard before. His body almost seemed as if it was not his own as he gushed warm liquid into my mouth. I forced myself to swallow it before I lay back down next to him.
    His breath was staggered, and when he reached out to hold me, I allowed it, but the magic was gone and all I wanted was to escape from him.
    “Stay with me tonight,” he said softly into my hair.
    “You know I can’t”
    “Gary won’t care, he knows me, he’s let you before.”
    “I know,” I explained, “but”, I sighed, “we got into a fight before I left, he’s probably out looking for me.”
    “You think so?”
    “I don’t want to find out,” I said forcing a small laugh.
    In truth, Gary probably didn’t care. If he could just break off whatever we had as heartlessly as he did then why would he want to have me there if he wanted me gone? The thought crossed my mind to stay with Thomas, but was quickly dismissed. I knew I couldn’t, I never could be with him.
     
    Thomas
    May 1984
    Kat left as swiftly as she had come, and left me with a feeling of emptiness. I had been waiting so long for her to come back to me, to realize that, yes, there was something there. But no, she still refused to let it happen. I tried to suppress it, tried to put it out my mind, but the feeling of her on my body, God. I could feel myself growing hard again at the thought of it. Images ran through my mind, betraying everything I was trying to dismiss. I quickly pulled down my pants and began rubbing myself. Fuck. I was still slick with her… The release wasn’t satisfying. I wanted her again, needed her. I knew it was halfway impossible, but I’d have her again. I had to.
    Kat
    June 1984
    “Kathryn, talk to me,” Gary begged.
    I ignored him and continued to pack my things. I had asked Thomas earlier that week if I could move in with him and he said it was okay. He seemed hopeful towards me since I had renewed our intimacy.
    “Come on, Kathryn,” he said again
    He had been following me around like a wounded animal the past week or so, very uncharacteristic for Gary, I thought to myself.
    “Kat!” he yelled, slamming my suitcase shut so I was forced to look right at him.
    My eyes snapped to his, he had used my nickname instead of ‘Kathryn’.
    “I’m sorry, okay?” he said
    I breathed out hard, “No you’re not. If you were you would have made it work, but no, you care more about your career.”
    “I could go to jail, Kathryn if anyone proves those rumors to be true.”
    “I’ll be eighteen in a couple months Gary, I really don’t think it matters THAT much.”
    He huffed and moved away from me, “you don’t even know how hard this is for me, do you?”
    “Apparently not,” I said reopening my suitcase and