of dog food, and I know that Skeetah already knows what kind he wants. He always gets the same kind: the most expensive. Daddy once bought Skeet a big fifty-pound bag of generic dog food at the feed store. Skeetah fed China the food and she ate it in gulps, swallowed it down like it was water, and shat it out in runny lumps, like sunny-side-up eggs, all over the Pit. After that, she ate table scraps Skeet sneaked out the house for a month. He spent that month in the shed, banging at one of Daddyâs junk lawn mowers until one day he started it screaming to life, and then he went down to the Catholic church and convinced them to pay him to cut the grass and pull weeds at the graveyard. Mostly because they knew about Mama, I think, they let him do it. He mows three times a week during the summer, and in the winter, he weeds. Thatâs how he gets his dog food money. On a few of Daddyâs drunk nights when heâs down at the Oaks nodding off to the blues, Iâve seen Skeet walking out of Daddyâs room with his hands balled into stealing fists in his pockets. I keep expecting Daddy to wake up one morning to find some of his money missing. Heâd be out in the hallway, yelling for Skeetah, throwing off anger and alcohol like steam, but weâve been lucky. That hasnât happened yet.
âMy dog do good on that one.â When I walk up, Big Henry is pointing to a big green bag; itâs not the cheapest dog food, but itâs not the most expensive either. Skeetah ignores him; heâs already pulling at a fifty-pound sack.
âChina like what she like.â He mumbles this. The bag hangs like a limp child over his shoulder, and it crunches.
âNext thing you know, you going to be buying her allergy medicine. Marquise said thereâs a white girl at yâall school that got a dog thatâs allergic to grass. Grass ,â Big Henry whispers.
âThatâs âcause some people understand that between man and dog is a relationship.â Skeet jumps and shifts the bag. It hangs even, covers half his chest. âEqual.â
âMy dog would just be sneezing.â Big Henry says. He shrugs and laughs. He has eyes the color of bleached-out asphalt, and when he smiles, they shrink to fingernails in his face.
âYour dog wouldnât be able to breathe. And heâd hate you,â Skeet says.
All the checkout lines are long. All the steel baskets are full. Skeetah rocks from side to side on his feet, and me and Big Henry bump into each other and donât know what to do. He ricochets back and rocks the candy and magazine rack, and I cross my arms and pinch my elbows. I feel like I should have a basket, wonder if when these people look at us, they wonder where our supplies are. The cabinets at home have enough food to get us through a few days until the stores are back up and running, and if the cabinets donât, Daddy will make sure to stock them if a storm hits. But the way the cashierâs apron hangs off one shoulder, like she hasnât had the time to pull it up with all the groceries sheâs been scanning, makes me nervous. Sheâs made up of all the reds: red hair in a ponytail, red cheeks, red hands. I put my hands in my pockets, and the pregnancy test I ripped out of the box and tucked into the waistband of my shorts when I wandered away from Skeetah on a trip to the bathroom scratches my side.
Maybe itâs China that made me get it. I know somethingâs wrong; for weeks Iâve been throwing up every other day, always walking around feeling like someoneâs massaging my stomach, trying to push the food up and out of me. Some months when I eat a little less because Iâm tired of ramen or potatoes, Iâm irregular. But the sickness and the vomiting make me think I should get a test, that and me being two months irregular, and the way I wake up every morning with my abdomen feeling full, fleshy and achy and wet, like the
Mark Edwards, Louise Voss