alluring blend of sincerity in his eyes and a commanding set to his mouth, he reached out and took her hand, holding it loosely in his. âItâs something youâll want to see, Pia.â
Her hand warmed from his and she sighed. After that kiss, her ground rule of keeping their distance was pretty much blown out of the water. And if he knew of something that related to their baby, then she wanted to see it.
She withdrew her hand and folded her arms under her breastsâkeeping the temptation to touch him again at bay. âWhere are we going?â
âI think itâd be better if I just show you.â
The JT sheâd known was always teasing and playing games like this, but his expression was earnest, so she let it go. âOkay.â
She grabbed her bag and picked up her keys from the kitchen bench. JT had thrown his jacket on and held up the long mocha coat that had been beside his on the coat stand.âThank you,â she said as she slipped her arms through the sleeves, shivering as his hands brushed the hair at the base of her neck before he released the coat.
He held his hand out for the car keys. She looked from his empty hand up to his eyes. âYou think Iâll let you drive my car? Remember Iâve seen you drive.â
âNot since I was seventeen,â he said, clearly unconcerned by her reluctance. âBesides you donât know where weâre going.â
âYou could simply tell me,â she pointed out.
âI could,â he said, but his crooked smile clearly said I wonât .
Shaking her head at how comfortable he seemed to be making himself in her life again, she handed over her keys. It was only one night, and then theyâd go their separate ways. And in the meantime, she really wanted to see what his something was.
They climbed into her Mercedes Cabriolet and he drove them out of town, her Nina Simone CD providing background music. As the New York streetlights flashed by, she lost track of time and distance, absorbed in thoughts of their baby and what could have been. Perhaps they would have married and been raising Brianna together, living in a sweet little house with a garden out front. Heâd greet her each night with the passion ofâ
No. She bit down on her trembling bottom lip. That was a fantasy. Their relationship would have self-destructed long ago. She would have self-destructed if sheâd stayed with JT. Her hands gripped each other as if for dear life.
âYou all right, princess?â
She jumped as his words cut into her thoughts. âYou agreed not to call me that.â
âYouâre right. Iâm sorry.â But he didnât look sorry. Infact he looked more like the young JT as his green eyes took on a twinkle.
She watched him from the corner of her eye as he expertly handled her car, his powerful arms turning the wheel to hug the corners. There was something about his profile, the shadow of the dayâs beard on his cheeks, that screamed âdanger.â And she knew exactly what that danger wasânot him; no, he would never hurt her. It was in what he unleashed in her. All the bad traits, all the selfish, worst aspects of herself were magnified and harder to resist when he was nearby. It wasnât how she wanted to live. It wasnât the person she wanted to be.
When they were young, all he had to do was hold out an apple and sheâd reach for the forbidden fruit, no questions, no self-control. Her parents had warned her that she was out of control, but she hadnât listened. Her teachers had told her that her grades were dropping, but sheâd much rather dream about JT than listen in class.
It had only been when her recklessness had cost her baby the ultimate price that sheâd finally taken stock. The sole method available to pull back from the brink of self-destruction was to cut herself off from JTâto tear from her heart the almost-physical connection they had.