JTâs father-love.
Yet she could see now, in the depths of his haunted green eyes, that heâd suffered a grief as powerful as her own, that Brianna had been as much his baby as hers, that the pain of losing her was his as well.
And while her family had been pushing her to move on,to pretend it hadnât happened, JT had made this simple, beautiful memorial. The craftsmanship was exquisiteâmade from one piece of wood, carved and polished with love.
Even after the way sheâd shut him out, heâd shown her this, shared it with her as a gift, his solace to her. Her vision blurred and she was helpless to stop hot tears spilling down her face.
Silently, gently, JT wiped her cheeks with his thumbs, whispering soothing sounds and words, which only made her cry more. His arms came around her, wrapping her in his safe embrace and she leaned into his strength, needing it now more than anything. His black jacket was rough beneath her grip, his scent familiar, his body warm.
After endless minutes, her tears eased, but she couldnât let him go. The comfort of the only other person who understood her pain was something she couldnât yet step away from. His hands made long, reassuring strokes down her back, his breath warm near her ear.
She looked up, seeking his gaze and whispered, âI wishââ
âI know,â he said, placing a finger over her lips to silence the futile yearnings, then pressed his lips to her cheek. The touch of his mouth was so soft that she leaned further into him, needing the human contact, his living touch. She turned her face and sought his lips, and his hands cupped her face as he kissed her tenderly, no more than butterfly kisses that made her ache inside.
As his mouth moved to her jaw, her throat, she wound her arms around his waist, surrendering herself to him, needing to block out all else.
Yet, as hard as she tried, she couldnât block it out. It was too muchâseeing JT again this morning, opening the memory box for the first time in years, the cross forBriana, being with JT in the same place they used to come as teenagers. Too much to all happen in half a day. She didnât have anything left to give, any defenses remaining.
JT slowed the trail of kisses, then looked down at her. âIs something wrong?â
âWeâve been here before, JT,â she said, laying a staying hand on his chest. âThis isnât good for either of usââ
âPia,â he said softly. âYouâre overthinking. If you want to stop, weâll stop. But all thatâs happening here is two people who have gone through a harrowing experience together, reaching out to each other for what comfort they can find.â He placed an exquisite kiss on her lips. âLet me comfort you, princess.â
If heâd tried to convince her with sensuality, she could have resisted. But the tenderness in his voice almost brought tears to her eyes once more.
âYes,â she whispered.
All she needed in this moment was to escape in his arms. Moonbeams danced around them as she let him lead her to a place with no memories. No pain.
Four
A s JT laid her down on a makeshift rug of their coats, Pia opened her arms to welcome him, the keen edge of anticipation making even the air feel electric. It was as if sheâd waited fourteen years for this moment. Why was it only JT who could inspire this level of want within her?
He pulled her against his strong form and pressed a hot, velvet kiss to her throat. The feeling was so decadent that she moaned as he laid more kisses down her throat to the edge of her collarbone.
Sheâd missed this.
Needing to feel the heat of his skin, she fumbled for the hem of his T-shirt and pushed it up. When her hands made contact, she squeezed her eyes shut to savor the feeling. Her fingertips chased over the planes of his chest, greedy to make up for every moment sheâd existed without his skin touching