the pieces fit now.â
Badly, I thought. You only see me half the time.
Still, I was relieved heâd be around tomorrow. Maybe, if we tried really hard, we could coax a smile out of him. The new apartment came with a TV and I could hook up my laptop for a holiday movie marathon. Given his status as a classic-movie nerd, Kian probably adored Itâs a Wonderful Life and Miracle on 34th Street . Iâd seen bothâdidnât love themâbut I was willing to sit through them if Kian and Dad wanted to.
I chilled with my dad while he paged through a scientific journal. But an hour later, he murmured, âWe should get some sleep, if weâre making a feast tomorrow.â
It was eight oâclock.
But I couldnât force him to talk to me. Maybe the progress Iâd made was as much as I could hope for so soon. Tired, I trudged down the hall to wash my face and brush my teeth. My room was still devoid of personality, most of my things still boxed up in the closet. This didnât feel like somewhere I actually lived, more that I was killing time.
When I popped my laptop open, I had a message from Vi waiting. She was still online, so I pinged her for a chat. As usual, her room was a mess and beyond her closed door, I could hear her mom yelling at Viâs brother. Then her dad rumbled something while she made an OMG face.
âSorry about that.â
âItâs okay. I envy you the noise, actually.â
âOh. Yeah, I bet.â She changed the subject swiftly, probably guessing I didnât want to go farther down that road. âDid you get my package?â
âNot yet.â
âCrap. Itâs probably hung up in the Christmas mail rush.â
âThanks for thinking of me. I forgot to send you anything.â Yeah, Iâm definitely winning the cruddy friend award this year.
âI didnât expect you to. Merry Christmas, Edie.â
âThanks. Give my best to your family.â
âOh, if your invitation still stands, Iâm talking to my parents about coming to see you. Maybe for a few days during spring break?â
Since Iâd mentioned that a while ago, long before the supernatural shit hit the fan, it was probably a terrible idea for all the reasons. But she seemed so bright and hopeful that I couldnât say no. Maybe her parents would do that for me. Iâd used a favor to protect her, so Wedderburn should honor the deal.
âIâd love to see you,â I said honestly. âI miss you.â
âMe too.â
Just then I heard Viâs mom yell, âAre you coming down to wrap presents or not?â
Visibly exasperated, she shouted back, âGive me a minute!â
âItâs fine. Go do family stuff.â
âSorry. We all have to wrap junk for the relatives. Grandparents, cousins, nieces, whatever. God, itâs such a pain.â
Vi might think so, but if it went away, if her house got quiet, I bet sheâd feel differently. âSay hi to everyone for me.â
âNo problem.â With that, she signed off.
There was no word from Ryu, but it hadnât been long enough since we talked for me to worry about him. That left me sitting in my room, wishing Kian could pop in secretly like he used to. But some things couldnât be undone.
In my darkest moments, I wondered if it wouldâve been better for everyone if Iâd stuck with the original plan ⦠and jumped off the bridge.
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MONSTERâS BALL
Christmas wasnât bad.
With my dad checked in, we made enough food for the three of us and it wasnât depressing or lame like Thanksgiving. There was ham, mashed potatoes, and green beansânot a feastâbut better than the frozen junk weâd been eating since my momâs funeral. Afterward, we exchanged gifts. I was astonished my father remembered to buy me anything, even a bookstore gift card. He seemed to like the blue scarf I got him.
Kian offered me a small