winter Louis went to try to sell Félix a ticket for a lottery which was being organised to raise money to pay for the transport of the village children to the nearest swimming pool. Everyone born in the mountains should learn how to swim! was the motto of the campaign.
There I was, explained Louis afterwards in the café, climbing up through the orchard to Feloâs house. It was already dark and I was glad I had a pocket lamp. At the top of the hill I thought I heard music. It must be the radio, I told myself. My hearingâs not as good as it used to be. From the big pear tree beside the yard a white owl flew up. Thereâs not many come up this way at night, I said. The music was clearer now, and it was an accordion. No radio sounds like that. The crafty boy, heâs got company, I said. Nearer the house, I couldnât believe my ears. The music was coming from the stable! There was a light in the window and the music was coming from the stable! Perhaps heâs dancing with the gypsies, perhaps he likes to dance with gypsies and is frightened to let them into the house, thieving good-for-nothings that they are. Who would have believed Felo would dance with gypsies if he wasnât his fatherâs son? I peered through the filthy little window and inside I could make out the dancing figures. No use knocking here, Lulu, I said. So I tried the door. It was locked. To hell with the lottery ticket, I simply wanted to see what was going on. Allthe doors were locked and he was with the gypsies in the stable. Then I had an idea. Ten to one, Félix didnât lock the barn door above the house. Up the ramp in five seconds and I was right, it was open. By each trap heâd prepared the hay to fork down to each cow in the morning. Not everyone does that, heâs farsighted, Félix. The music was coming up through the floorboards louder and wilder than everâa mazurka. I lifted up one of the traps and, lying on my stomach on the little pile of hay, I peered through. There was the cow bedded down, and there was Félix seated on a stool, beneath the one dim electric light bulb, an accordion between his arms. For the rest I couldnât believe my eyes. Lulu, youâre seeing things, I told myself. Félix was alone! Not another soul in the stable, playing to the fucking cows! He can play though, Félix can. You should get him to bring his music down here sometime.
On the night of Philippeâs wedding, when the sky was already getting light from the dawn, long after Philippe had taken Yvonne to bed, and the parents and the parents-in-law had gone home, a few of us, including the dressmaker with dangling earrings who liked laughing and who worked in a factory that produced wooden handles for house paintersâ brushes, a few of us were still dancing and Félix sat playing on his usual chair, his cap on the back of his bald head, his heavy working-boots tapping the floor as he played. We might have stopped dancing before, yet one tune had led to the next, and Félix had fitted them together like one pipe into another till the chimney was so high it was lost in the sky. A chimney of tunes, and the womenâs feet so tired they had taken off their shoes to dance barefoot.
Music demands obedience. It even demands obedience of the imagination when a melody comes to mind. You can think of nothing else. Itâs a kind of tyrant. In exchange it offers its own freedom. All bodies can boast about themselves with music. Theold can dance as well as the young. Time is forgotten. And that night, from behind the silence of the last stars, we thought we heard the affirmation of a Yes.
âLa Belle Jacquelineâ once more! the dressmaker shouted at Félix. I love music! With music you can say everything!
You canât talk to a lawyer with music, Félix replied.
Perhaps they are right, those who pretend there are harps in heaven. Maybe flutes and violins too. But Iâm sure there are
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